Binge eating

Jram85

Two years ago I had some serious issues with bulemia and binge eating.  I've since gotten to a healthy point in life where I no longer throw up, but I still sometimes experience the binge eating.  Of course I plan to discuss this with my doctor (appt is monday), but in the mean time, I've been having a lot of urges to binge eat on crap.  Junk food out the wazoo.  It doesn't help that my mom has been baking cookies/brownies/banana breads for her work and they are just taunting me.

 Anyone else have problems with this?  Any advice?  I end up locking myself in my room and refusing to go into the kitchen at all.  The urge is so intense to just lay into an entire pan of brownies that I'm begining to get anxious and have these cold sweats.

I wish I could binge eat on healthy things, like apples and grapes, but that just doesn't to it for me.  The urge to eat junk just comes back.

I feel better after typing all of that.

JessicaG56

sorry to hear your pass history. that is big of you to admit it but i have never had that and i can tell you i could binge all day on unhealthy things!! i craved fast food for like the first 4 months with my second. i say give in a bit and maybe that will help curb them? or maybe tell people to get that crap away from u

Callidryas

JessicaG56:

sorry to hear your pass history. that is big of you to admit it but i have never had that and i can tell you i could binge all day on unhealthy things!! i craved fast food for like the first 4 months with my second. i say give in a bit and maybe that will help curb them? or maybe tell people to get that crap away from u

This!  Good luck!  I know it is hard to stay away when that is all you crave is crappy food, but be strong.  Do you have someone to call, like a support buddy?

Jram85

Since I moved from Georgia over a year ago I don't have any of my close friends available to talk to except via phone. I have a very small circle (2 people, so more like a triangle I guess), and they really don't know what to do or say when I explain this to them as it is a completely alien concept for them.  They're like, "well, just get away from the food."  Yes, that's good... but if I can't binge on food then I'm likely to binge on a more destructive behavior.  Luckily, that hasn't happened for a few years, but the thought is always on my mind because relapsing would be a huge set back to my progress.  I'm also not so worried about relapsing into self harm (which was my 'cup of tea' back then) because I have so many people rooting for me, like my husband and mom, and this little boy growing inside.

I did tell my mom that it would be beneficial for her to just stop baking all these sweets for a while, or if she's going to bake, to take it to her work THAT SAME DAY so it doesn't linger around the house and tempt me.

I'll just wait to see what the doc says.  Maybe he/she can offer some advice or give some references for support groups.

Thanks for reading and offering your support  

 

EJensify

I agree with everyone else that getting the junk outta the house is the best start...but if you're still feeling the urge to binge, can you find a healthier alternative for the time being? I know from experience how difficult that is to fight. Maybe a bag of grapes or a cantaloupe would suffice. I know neither are as satisfying as the baked goodies, but they won't bring as much guilt and the urge to bring it all back up.

Stephcara

Sadly, I know the feeling all too well. I have suffered for years and every day is a struggle in it's own way. I just take things one day at a time. I know easier said than done.  I wish that I had tangible advice for you. My best piece is to love yourself and and feel good about yourself no matter what.  Food is not love or hate.

pm me if you ever want some support/someone to talk or vent to.

hang in there.  good for you for getting this out there.

lacatalina

Are you in a position where you might be able to see a psychologist/psychiatrist/counselor?  I deal with the same issues and having consistent professional help has been the most beneficial thing for me.  I wish we could just flip a switch and fix it :-(