Had my first visit with the RE today...

LilMaggs

First set of bloodwork drawn (karyotyping and clotting disorders, if I remember right), and we will get the CD3 bloodwork and saline sono this next cycle.  The dildo-cam did show a white spot in the uterus that he wants to check on in the saline sono.  But we did confirm that I'm ovulating, at least.  After all test results are back, we'll get the plan of care.

 I give him huge props for actually reading over my medical and FF charts.  He says that we can take the month off of charting, but I'm not sure I'm ready to do that.  This may sound pathetic, but it's how I feel like I'm contributing to getting KTFU.  Yes, we're still taking this next cycle off, but I don't know if I can give up charting.  How did you ladies decide whether to keep charting or not?

Right now, I'm just feeling numb/detached.  I just want answers. Nothing is going to bring my lost babies back, but today, that's all I want.  Looking forward is not easy.  I don't know why I'm having such a hard time this week.  

butterfly843

Sending hugs, sorry you are having a hard week. Glad your appt went well with the RE.

GuppyAmy

Sounds like he is looking into a lot. I hope you find an answer that leads to your take home baby. Try to take a deep breath, it's a lot to take in. I can't wait to hear the results of all your tests. Good luck!

cutebride73

First, (((hugs))) for you rough week. 

I can certainly understand about wanting answers.  Sometimes you get them and sometimes you don't, I think that is one of the hardest things about loss and IF.  Neither of which we have any control over.  Even though I came back + with 2 clotting issues, they can't say for sure whether that caused 2 of my losses.  But, they are treating the issue and I feel like that is the best I can do.

As far as charting goes, that was really hard for me too.  With my 2nd loss, the longest pregnancy, I did stop temping and I didn't start up right away.  But, I did go back to it.  It always made me feel like I had some part to play as well.  I even tempted through my injects + TI cycle. 

I was TTA last cycle and once I confirmed that I O'd I just stopped.  It was wierd at first, but I don't miss it now.  Besides, I will be on PIO, so it would make my temps look off anyway. 

Good luck - I hope you get the answers that you need and a plan that will work. 

Fififa21

Sending you hugs, I?m sorry this week has been so tough. I?m glad things went well at your appointment and I hope you are able to move forward with a plan soon.

heathergirl67

I'm really sorry that you're having such a rough day. I hope that tomorrow is better.

As for the charting: if it makes you feel better to do it, then go for it! My RE did the same as yours- looked at my charts, agreed with FF (and my) assessment of when I was ovulating, and then told me that I don't need to chart anymore. He said that several months worth of charts showed that I could expect the same thing every cycle, so additional charts are unnecessary. For me it was a relief, but there's no reason for you to stop if you find it comforting.

And I can totally relate to wanting answers... even wanting to be told that something is wrong with you. On the one hand it's nice to know that everything seems to be okay, but on the other hand that leaves you not knowing what's wrong! And if you don't know what's wrong you can't work at fixing it. So frustrating!

KristysRedBarn

Hugs.  I'm sorry things are rough.  It sounds like you are taking some good steps forward to find answers.  I haven't charted enough to offer any advice on that part, just do what YOU need to do, if you need to keep charting, then do so, if you need a break, take it.

KelinandKevin

If it makes you feel good to chart, chart!  I am glad your visit with the RE went well.  Best of luck to you!

suntoto

Hugs, I am so sorry you are going through this. 

As for charting I only did it to get a picture of what my cycles where like.  I did it for about 4 mo and then stopped.  I tended to be one of those over analyzers, so quitting was wonderful.   Quit when it is best for you.

ColleenS629

I'm glad your appointment went well. I didn't stop charting until the RE started monitoring my cycles. I just had to know what was going on in there!

EntropicEpona

You're having a hard time because IF is such a kick to the nuts. It suuuucks, and there's no way to avoid that.

However, you've enlisted an RE and that is fantastic! And it sounds like he's a good one, too. Good luck!

mdm2137

I'm glad your appt went well. I kept forgetting to take my temp so that's why I quit charting. I think it makes me less obsessive also. I hope you get some answers.

ColindaP

Going to the RE is a big, scary step, but it's also a huge positive step. I hope teh testing brings you some answers.