I give up

sapphire angel

Normal 0 false false false EN-US X-NONE X-NONE MicrosoftInternetExplorer4 /* Style Definitions */ table.MsoNormalTable {mso-style-name:"Table Normal"; mso-tstyle-rowband-size:0; mso-tstyle-colband-size:0; mso-style-noshow:yes; mso-style-priority:99; mso-style-qformat:yes; mso-style-parent:""; mso-padding-alt:0in 5.4pt 0in 5.4pt; mso-para-margin-top:0in; mso-para-margin-right:0in; mso-para-margin-bottom:10.0pt; mso-para-margin-left:0in; line-height:115%; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:11.0pt; font-family:"Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-ascii-font-family:Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-theme-font:minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin;}

LO wins. I'm quitting the PhD program I'm in after working my butt of for freaking 10 years to have the top grades, the best references, the best everything... to get me the degree and job I always wanted and refused to settle for anything less. Thanks LO. You win. You can stop acting the demon child now and send back the happy toddler that was here 2 months ago.

I'll drop classes at the end of March so I don't have to pay back any loans immediately since those are what we live on at the moment, then get a job working at Walmart, HEB, the mall, or something until July when my lease is up. Move back in with my parents, who think I'm mentally unbalanced. My mom will provide some daycare for me until things settle down financially from moving. Then get a job teaching math/science at the middle/high school level for hopefully this fall. I know at least that the district where my parents live desperately want math/science subs so I'll have that to fall back on.

Thanks again LO for making sure I end up the failure I always tried not to be.

mamaoftwingirls

Have you talked to anyone about this? Like someone other than your family? You sound overwhelmed and very stressed. I think you should maybe seek some help before you give up. No matter what you're going through I think you'll realize your baby is just being a baby...She doesn't want you to fail, she's just doing what babies do. I think you should really talk to someone. Have you considered ppd or maybe trying medication? I know It has helped me alot!

sapphire angel

I've tried over 7 different medications and combos. I would have to get a list from the psychiatrist to remember everything she's offered and in what order.I have felt drugged on all of them so far and one landed me in the hospital.

I hate the therapists I've seen because they are patronizing. I don't need them to tell me that my life as a parent is pure hell. I've made that realization on my own.

I realize LO is just a baby. I thought I could make it when I had a happy, pleasant-to-be-around child 2 months ago. Now I have this demonically possessed child that even the daycare teachers are having trouble controlling. We've started time-out and I know it doesn't have immediate results but it just makes my LO even more mad and aggressive towards me. And she is so much easier on the daycare teachers than she is to me at home.

I also blame my Ex for being the selfish bastard he is and refusing to grow up and take some responsibility. I am seriously praying that this brand new truck gets repo'd because I refused to give him $1000 this month.

I blame my family for not being supportive and for maintaining the idea that this is just some funk I need to snap out of.

My friends have turned out to be not so good friends because when I split from ex, he convinced all of them that the split was my fault and that I cheated on him so they are all just his friends now. Ex completely isolated me from people who could have been friends and now I have no one except a demonic child that I hate being around

Unknown

This content has been removed.