hate this waiting game... Vent

GoMommy

I hate not having my son with me, I hate not being able to feed him and take care of him.  Hate it!  I am grateful that he is slowly getting better and also that he isn't in that bad of shape, but this waiting is killing us.  The docs/nurses are telling us "hopefully later you will be able to breastfeed (feed at all for our little guy) IF his breathing rate goes down." But we have been hearing this since Tues. 

I'm just having a hard time dealing with all this and not being able to be the mother I thought I would have been by now.  I've only changed one diaper and haven't fed him at all.  At least I have been able to hold him.. but it is still breaking my heart.  This is just a vent...

pomrom

I understand!!! Xander was in the NICU for 9-10 days and it was rough! He was on a ventilator for two days to start and once he was weaned off of that, he went to cpap and then a nasal canula and down to nothing.

With that said, I know how hard it is to be patient. I know it sucks! But with his breathing rate so fast, you don't want to feed right now. He could asperate and end up with it in his lungs and that would not be good. If he isn't ready for it, don't push him and I know it is easier said than done.

I have had two preemies and the best advice we got while we were there is "Never trust the baby." The will do what they want in their own time.

We had a bad case of the "tomorrows" too. Tomorrow was the answer we got for everything. I kept saying that I would not be excited to go home until we got to the car with him.

Hang in there Mommy.... I know it is hard!

TiffanyTheMom

Hang in there, momma. I know it can't be easy, but he'll be home when the time is right.