VBA2C Hopeful Update

Strawberrywine

I headed in for an u/s wednesday and found out that the baby is breech. Interestingly both my sons have flipped last minute, so I'm not super concerned about it, but am definitely trying all the tricks which have worked in the past.

 I decided to schedule a c/s for week 39 b/c my goal at the end of the day is to simply have a peaceful and memorable and healthy birth.  My last was so traumatic that I'd rather just avoid it although VBAC would definitely be my first choice.

 I found this story and although written for parents of children w/special needs, it speaks to me in its own way. 

When you're going to have a baby, it's like planning a fabulous vacation trip - to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It's all very exciting.

After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, "Welcome to Holland."

"Holland?!?" you say. "What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I'm supposed to be in Italy. All my life I've dreamed of going to Italy."

But there's been a change in the flight plan. They've landed in Holland and there you must stay.

The important thing is that they haven't taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It's just a different place.

So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.

It's just a different place. It's slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you've been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around.... and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills....and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.

But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy... and they're all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say "Yes, that's where I was supposed to go. That's what I had planned."

And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away... because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss.

But... if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn't get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things ... about Holland.

 It's hard knowing that I'm headed back to Holland again even though I've done everything I can to get on the plane for Italy. Time will tell I guess.

ABMcKinney

Oh, I love this I've heard this story before (I have an autistic sister, so it has special meaning there) but it's kind of perfect to describe how I feel about my 2nd c/s. Even though I didn't have the vaginal birth I wanted, I had a wonderful experience that I wouldn't change for the world.

papagena

I hope you have a great experience, whatever happens!   

iris427

Good luck!  I hope you have a wonderful, healthy birth!  

Strawberrywine

Thanks everyone! I'm hoping I'm headed that way in the positive way I can.