So depressed and anxious...just trying to make it through the day

janabelle3

Hi all- nice to meet you...  I have 7 week old twins and this day is just really hard for me. I've lurked on this board before but needed to post today to get some encouragement. I haven't been diagnosed with PPD but I am seeing a therapist this week which I need badly. I am so overwhelmed with watching my babies everyday by myself while my husband is working, I have extreme anxiety,I'm depressed..I feel basically trapped in my house right now. I plain old just feel so low and terrible. I cry on and off during the day.I know it's hard with one baby, and it's just too much for me to handle right now with two.  This is the first day where he is gone for the day and night out of town and I hate him being gone. I hope that the therapist can help me...she isn't a PPD specialist and that is what I wanted to go see. The specialists I found don't take my specific insurance . Anyways-any words of encouragement today would be great.... thanks all!!!    

astroMom

I can't imagine what you are going through with twins.  It will get better, and there are ladies on here to support you along the way.  I fought medication for about 2 months but am glad I am finally getting the medical help I need.

jedigurl777

I'm so sorry for what you're going through.  I can't even imagine handling PPD with twins.  The best encouragement I can offer is to talk - to anyone who will listen and care and help you take your mind off things.  I'm glad to hear you're getting professional help, but friends and family can go a long way to filling in the gap.  Also, follow your heart when it comes to meds.  Don't fight it if you need help.  Your babies need a healthy mommy more than anything else in the world.  Nothing matters more than your health right now.  I fought meds for 8 months because of all the breastfeeding police out there making me feel like a failure for needing to give it up.  As a result, I barely remember my child's first year.  You do what you need to make yourself healthy - that is the very VERY best gift you can give your children.  Best of luck - know that you aren't alone.

JustJanie

I was there exactly one year ago.  It was the worst thing that's ever happened to me but it gets better.  It gets so much better.

I had a couple of weeks that were really really bad... I had to be with someone all the time.  I went to work with my husband (with DD of course) just to sit there all day and not be alone.  I talked to my doctor about going to the psych ward just to feel like my baby was safe/okay.  

I took ativan and zoloft... 

And it got better... so much better. 

I'm so sorry that you're dealing with this.