ppocd

BabyyMamma

Hi ladies....

I have PPOCD and its ruining my life

I guess im just looking for someone who understands

alamo10

I'm right there with ya! I got OCD when I was about 4 months pregnant and it was just horrible. I felt like if I didn't touch something the right way, my baby would die. It was hard to explain to people because it sounds totally stupid. My OB said it was just hormones and it should go away and for the most part it did.

Recently I've been feeling that way again. I does pretty much take over your life. I hate it.

jaime5121

I totally understand - I had PPD and PPOCD.  The good news is you CAN get better.  I am no longer on meds, and my beautiful boy is 19 months old.  You can survive this!

CollieJade

Yep, it's awful.  Sorry you're going through it.  I had PPD, PPOCD, PPA, and PP Psychosis.  I was a mess. 

Meds definitely help!!!  A low dose of Zoloft really balanced me out a lot better so that i was able to rationalize things instead of letting the anxiety and obsessive thinking totally paralyze me, which it was.  My OCD is still there, but it no longer rules me.  I'd encourage you to see your doctor and see if meds might be right for you.

viper27g

I got acquired OCD after i had my first daughter.  The doctor told me that a change in life and a need to protect can trigger the OCD.  I cant imagine it getting worse but i am so terrified that it will after this baby because it has gotten worse since i got married and moved out of my parents home(i did things out of order! Got pregnant, met my now husband, moved out, got married!) I just kept letting it snowball b/c i tried zoloft a few years after my daughter was born and never felt better so i just thought it was just me and meds would do no good.  I gave in and went back and started on Luvox and it was amazing.  I stopped my meds when i found out i was pregnant again. But i am back to square one and am going back to the doctor on wednesday to restart meds

klcl8981

I have not personally experienced PPOCD, but the author of postpartumprogress.com has. You should read her experiences, and her information on surviving and recovering. She has lots of information all over the site.

https://www.lijit.com/search?uri=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.lijit.com%2Fusers%2Fkatstone&q=&type=blog

That link has results to every article on her blog that mentions PPOCD.

https://www.postpartumprogress.com/weblog/

Here is the main page. 

BabyyMamma

ive been on luvox for 3 weeks now seems like it might be helping but i still feel so lost

alamo10

BabyyMamma:

ive been on luvox for 3 weeks now seems like it might be helping but i still feel so lost

Just give it some more time. It takes awhile but definately don't give up on the meds.

Hope you feel better soon.

jenn11178

Hello...and I am sorry to hear you are feeling this way..

I too believe I have PPOCD... I believe I have had OCD all my life and perhaps the aftermath of pregnancy has brought it on.

Like you, I felt lost and as if "it" was ruining my life.  What helped me the most..I confided in my family how I was feeling and then went to my doctor and did the same. It is amazing how much better I felt by simply speaking about it to others. If you are like me, you might feel guilt and shame about how you are feeling...well opening up has lifted that shame.  My OB did 2 things for me.. scheduled me to see a therapist and gave me a script for Zoloft.  I've opted not to take the meds because I am breastfeeding.  Instead, I am benefitting so much by speaking to a therapist, confiding in family and friends when something bothers me and reading up on everything about related to ocd and anxiety...

I'd also recommend the following book which deals pimarily with OCD and how to overcome it... It has helped so much!  "Dropping the Baby and Other Scary Thoughts.." The auhtor is wonderful and passionate

Hope you feel better soon...If you ever want to talk...reach out to me...take care!  

BabyyMamma

i would love to talk  but i dont know how to send a private message 

klcl8981

BabyyMamma:

i would love to talk  but i dont know how to send a private message 

At the bottom of her post, hit 'contact' and send a message.

jenny1980

Hey mama! I was right where you were when my baby (now 13.5 months) was two months old. It's SO hard and scary. The good news: I feel happier now than I've ever been. It took some hard work in therapy and the right meds, but within a couple months I was doing a thousand times better.

Please send me a PM--I'd be happy to chat in greater detail. I have some good book recommendations, etc.

Some things for you to know:

1. You're not alone

2. Your obsessive thoughts, no matter how scary, do not make you a bad person.

3. This will get better and you will be happy and whole again.

Hugs, sweetie. 

Crazysparkles

I am right there with you. At first it just started out with me havign the baby blues. Then one day I was on Baby Center and I read a post. The issue stuck in my head and it made me obsess over if I woud become that way. Now every time I see something along those lines I obbsess I even worry about the way I am around my son. It has made me a nervous wreck. I have had a few good days but im struggling. I didnt go to much in to detail.....Id rather not get judged.