ttc after miscarriage seven months ago

Sky08

Hello,

It has been a long while since I have posted anything on the bump.  I had a miscarriage about seven months ago and my original due date is February 8th.  I am starting to feel a little low and could use some encouragement.  I had it set in my mind that I may be able to deal with my loss if I was pregnant around my due date, but I am not pregnant.  I know it sounds weird, but it is true.  A lot of women around me have become pregnant since my miscarriage and it has been difficult for me to cope with that and cope with the fact that I am not pregnant at my due date.  Maybe it sounds selfish of me to think that way.  I really thought that I would be pregnant within six months of my miscarriage.  My co-worker just found out she is pregnant.  I am happy for her and her husband, but I want to be pregnant too.  I know I don't really have full control over whether I get pregnant or not, but it just feels like pure dissapointment when each month passes and it hasn't happened yet.  Doctors have told me that you are most fertile after the miscarriage and it would be easier to conceive.  I know that you can try to hard to get pregnant and that must be what I am doing.  It almost seems so easy for others to get pregnant.  Why is it so hard for me to get pregnant?  It doesn't make any sense to me.  I have been trying to not stress about anything and letting things go because I thought that was the reason.  I know that if you are calm and not think about getting pregnant, then it will happen, still no pregnancy.  Well, still going ttc and hopefully one day it will happen.