guilty feeling

MrsMiller1002

Hey ladies, Sorry if I'm posting on the wrong bored, I just thought it would be the best. 

Even though I'm not dealing with the postpartum depression because LO isnt here yet, I'm still depressed. : / 

 I started having these guilty feelings about 2 weeks ago. The reason for the guilt is due to a chronic illness I have. I fear that either my LO will too, get this horrible sickness, or that I will be too sick to play and be around him/her or even just care for her. 

Behcet's (the disease) is extremely rare, so there isn't much research on pregnancy and having it.  I'm going to one of the best hospitals in boston and my gyn/OB has never cared for a pregnant women with the disease. Only women who have it. They don't quite know if it's genetic or not, but there has been cases where children of mothers with it have gotten it for a short period of time as newborns. 

This pregnancy is something I wanted for a very long time, and for a while I was going through a "this disease isn't going to rule my life" stage.

I just worry about my future with my baby. I don't want them to be affected because of this. 

I'm just looking for some support , anyone in or was in the same shoes?

Thanks all!  

Hanginginthere2010

Check out this blog about it:  https://behcets.blogspot.com/2009/01/behcets-disease-and-pregnancy-part-1.html

Please don't feel guilty, motherhood is a wonderful thing and you can have healthy children.

MrsMiller1002

Hanginginthere2010:

Check out this blog about it:  https://behcets.blogspot.com/2009/01/behcets-disease-and-pregnancy-part-1.html

Please don't feel guilty, motherhood is a wonderful thing and you can have healthy children.

 

Thank you, Yes I know her blog, I've been following her for a while now

I think I need to just stop thinking about the what if 's and enjoy this special time. It just takes it's toll sometimes.  

Thanks!