FFFC!!!

Seattle_JiLLn

Cooper's sleep has really been all over the place but the last two nights have really sucked - he's been awake for 1.5-2 hours in the middle of the night, so I have too.  And my FFFC is that last night I actually yelled at him to go to sleep.  I feel bad.  But I'm so tired I have no idea what I'm doing.

In fact I'm so tired that when I read Stacy's FFC that "DD has been a pill for 2 weeks" I thought she said "DD has been ON THE PILL for 2 weeks".

And instead of napping I'm watching the Real Housewives reunion and eating Nilla Wafers.  In my defense, I am a bad napper, and I'm always worried that Cooper will wake up 2 minutes after I fall asleep which seems worse than getting no sleep at all.

My other confession is that all I think about now is sleep.  But I'm too exhausted to do anything about it and I have no idea what to do anyway.  

 And my other confession is that on top of being exhausted we have some stressful family stuff going on, and as a result, I'm stress eating carbs like no one's business.   

BriAndSean

Seattle_JiLLn:

Cooper's sleep has really been all over the place but the last two nights have really sucked - he's been awake for 1.5-2 hours in the middle of the night, so I have too.  And my FFFC is that last night I actually yelled at him to go to sleep.  I feel bad.  But I'm so tired I have no idea what I'm doing.

In fact I'm so tired that when I read Stacy's FFC that "DD has been a pill for 2 weeks" I thought she said "DD has been ON THE PILL for 2 weeks".

And instead of napping I'm watching the Real Housewives reunion and eating Nilla Wafers.  In my defense, I am a bad napper, and I'm always worried that Cooper will wake up 2 minutes after I fall asleep which seems worse than getting no sleep at all.

My other confession is that all I think about now is sleep.  But I'm too exhausted to do anything about it and I have no idea what to do anyway.  

 And my other confession is that on top of being exhausted we have some stressful family stuff going on, and as a result, I'm stress eating carbs like no one's business.   

Hugs Jill! Sleep deprivation is awful. A wise bumpie once told me to "just do whatever you have to do to survive" I'm hoping Cooper turns a corner for you soon!

Maddimom

I have another. I lurk on the fashion/beauty board and I wish I had style like some of them. The outfits are WAY cute. I suck at being cute. A hoddie and jeans is my style

ckmommy

1) Another one here joinging in the play area vent. We went to Southcenter today, and after I did my errands I let Carter play. He is big, so I watch very closely what he does. He grazed a kid's hand in a hitting motion, I went over told him he doesn't hit, and gave a sorry hug. The two were fine. 10 minutes later a kid half the size of Carter starts bashing him in the head with his fists then shoves him down to the ground. Carter got up, went to walk away and the kid did it again! The parents did nothing! I went over, got Carter and we left. He screamed the whole way to the car cause he just wanted to play. It didn't help that there was also a 9 year old running around throwing a ball for all of the older toddlers to chase, thus knocking over every younger toddler in their way.

2) I'm getting really frustrated with searching for jobs in the medical field. I want to further my education but also want to start at the bottom and not just jump in. No one seems to want to give me a chance because I don't have paid experience. I have gotten 4 thanks but no thanks emails in 2 days and have zilch communication regarding the 25 other positions I applied for. Ugh. I want to give up.

tfarabians

LuvBug12683:

...I've been putting off my Dr. appt to get my Mirena taken out b/c I'm afraid it will hurt, I finally did it and now I'm scheduled to go in on Wednesday! I guess that will make us "eligible" for baby #3 now, eeekk!

Don't forget your going to be my surrogate too lol!

MSTie24

WatchPot:

#2: I had a lot of fun at the GTG last weekend and for the first GTG didn't feel like a loner.  I really felt like I fit in, so Thanks!!   so for those newbies, hang in there it gets easier.

I'm so glad you came, S!  I had a great time chatting with you, and everyone else too of course!  Definitely agree, newbies need not be scared of the GTGs.

Mine: I lost my temper in the early hours of the morn with C.  I yelled and put her in her crib crying because I needed to cool down and stop sobbing.  I feel like a horrible mom and I promised her that I would never let her down like that again.  She deserves better.  I am so lucky to have a healthy, loving, smart baby and if she pulls an all night fussfest I should be grateful for all the good things and try to focus on those and not how tired and POed I am.  Thankfully she is her normal, happy self today so I don't think she remembers.

iHeartHimMore

MSTie24:

Mine: I lost my temper in the early hours of the morn with C.  I yelled and put her in her crib crying because I needed to cool down and stop sobbing.  I feel like a horrible mom and I promised her that I would never let her down like that again.  She deserves better.  I am so lucky to have a healthy, loving, smart baby and if she pulls an all night fussfest I should be grateful for all the good things and try to focus on those and not how tired and POed I am.  Thankfully she is her normal, happy self today so I don't think she remembers.

I remember doing the exact same thing and feeling the exact same way when Lila was about 4 months old.  It's SO hard to keep your composure at all times when you're exhausted and your baby just won't stop crying and you don't know how to fix it.  Big hugs, mama.  You are a great mom and a breakdown now and then won't change that.  C is lucky to have you too, you know!

WatchPot

iHeartHimMore:

MSTie24:

Mine: I lost my temper in the early hours of the morn with C.  I yelled and put her in her crib crying because I needed to cool down and stop sobbing.  I feel like a horrible mom and I promised her that I would never let her down like that again.  She deserves better.  I am so lucky to have a healthy, loving, smart baby and if she pulls an all night fussfest I should be grateful for all the good things and try to focus on those and not how tired and POed I am.  Thankfully she is her normal, happy self today so I don't think she remembers.

I remember doing the exact same thing and feeling the exact same way when Lila was about 4 months old.  It's SO hard to keep your composure at all times when you're exhausted and your baby just won't stop crying and you don't know how to fix it.  Big hugs, mama.  You are a great mom and a breakdown now and then won't change that.  C is lucky to have you too, you know!

Agree with this totaly.  I did that once and even went outside so I couldn't hear him and I felt so bad I immediately called the doc.  The doctor told me that was the best thing I could do for him at that moment becuase we each needed our space and sometimes you have to remove yourself from the situation to gain perspective.  You are not a bad mother and DID NOT let her down.  You took a moment to react like most would in a highly stressful situation and came back when you knew you could handle it.  I'm proud of you

WatchPot

Maddimom:

WatchPot:

#2: I had a lot of fun at the GTG last weekend and for the first GTG didn't feel like a loner.  I really felt like I fit in, so Thanks!!   so for those newbies, hang in there it gets easier.

It was FUN! Next time we will all wear tracksuits!  

You betcha we will! 

Seattle_JiLLn

MSTie24:

Mine: I lost my temper in the early hours of the morn with C.  I yelled and put her in her crib crying because I needed to cool down and stop sobbing.  I feel like a horrible mom and I promised her that I would never let her down like that again.  She deserves better.  I am so lucky to have a healthy, loving, smart baby and if she pulls an all night fussfest I should be grateful for all the good things and try to focus on those and not how tired and POed I am.  Thankfully she is her normal, happy self today so I don't think she remembers.

Did you read mine?  I did the same thing last night.  And I will also FFC that it wasn't the first time.   As it turns out, yelling "GO TO SLEEP NOW" doesn't really make a baby sleep.  Who would have known?    

We all lose our cool sometimes.  We can only do our best.  And you didn't let her down.  You didn't shake her or throw her down the stairs or hurt her.   And you're right, the 99% of the time that you are a great mom way overshadows the 1% of the time that you're insane.   

Alli923

WatchPot:

iHeartHimMore:

MSTie24:

Mine: I lost my temper in the early hours of the morn with C.  I yelled and put her in her crib crying because I needed to cool down and stop sobbing.  I feel like a horrible mom and I promised her that I would never let her down like that again.  She deserves better.  I am so lucky to have a healthy, loving, smart baby and if she pulls an all night fussfest I should be grateful for all the good things and try to focus on those and not how tired and POed I am.  Thankfully she is her normal, happy self today so I don't think she remembers.

I remember doing the exact same thing and feeling the exact same way when Lila was about 4 months old.  It's SO hard to keep your composure at all times when you're exhausted and your baby just won't stop crying and you don't know how to fix it.  Big hugs, mama.  You are a great mom and a breakdown now and then won't change that.  C is lucky to have you too, you know!

Agree with this totaly.  I did that once and even went outside so I couldn't hear him and I felt so bad I immediately called the doc.  The doctor told me that was the best thing I could do for him at that moment becuase we each needed our space and sometimes you have to remove yourself from the situation to gain perspective.  You are not a bad mother and DID NOT let her down.  You took a moment to react like most would in a highly stressful situation and came back when you knew you could handle it.  I'm proud of you

I think that most of the moms on this board can join this club.  I think we all have a moment or two when you are SO sleep deprived, frustrated, and just done that a little of that emotion slips out.  You didn't hurt her, you didn't scar her for life, and you didn't let her down.  It takes far more strength to realize you need a break and take it than to release that frustration when you hit your breaking point.

Don't be too hard on yourself.  We've all been there! 

martini-time

MSTie24:

WatchPot:

#2: I had a lot of fun at the GTG last weekend and for the first GTG didn't feel like a loner.  I really felt like I fit in, so Thanks!!   so for those newbies, hang in there it gets easier.

I'm so glad you came, S!  I had a great time chatting with you, and everyone else too of course!  Definitely agree, newbies need not be scared of the GTGs.

Mine: I lost my temper in the early hours of the morn with C.  I yelled and put her in her crib crying because I needed to cool down and stop sobbing.  I feel like a horrible mom and I promised her that I would never let her down like that again.  She deserves better.  I am so lucky to have a healthy, loving, smart baby and if she pulls an all night fussfest I should be grateful for all the good things and try to focus on those and not how tired and POed I am.  Thankfully she is her normal, happy self today so I don't think she remembers.

Like PPs said, you're not alone! It's truly hard to be 100% for your baby at all times, especially in the middle of the night when you're up for the 2nd, 3rd, or 4th time. You're human, raising a baby is the hardest job ever, and every now and then you might lose your cool. You didn't let her down at all! You totally did the right thing by taking a minute for yourself to cool down. And just remember, she loves you with all of her heart!  

MSTie24

Thanks, girls.  I needed that.  I'm sorry many of you have been there too but it's nice to know I'm not alone.

~Lynchie~

I have an extra $200 burning a hole in my pocket, and I was trying to decide if I wanted to buy a Clarisonic, or a Cricut.   After much deliberation I decided that I am slightly more vain than I am crafty, so I'm going with the Clarisonic

RJM050705

LuvBug12683:

...I've been putting off my Dr. appt to get my Mirena taken out b/c I'm afraid it will hurt, I finally did it and now I'm scheduled to go in on Wednesday! I guess that will make us "eligible" for baby #3 now, eeekk!

It totally didn't hurt!  I was quite pleasantly surprised.

breebree13

I let Sydney sleep on her tummy in my parents bed and let Connor play outside in the rain with my Mom all so I could sit in peace on their couch and play on my phone. It was nice to have that little bit of alone time that didn't have to be spent in the bathroom.