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Cried at work today :(

I still feel like an ass.  I started crying at a full staff meeting. 

Today was my first day back since DH's surgery and I was feeling so guilty for leaving him and guilty because I was glad to be out of the house, I couldn't take it anymore!

 My co-worker asked me about DH (she know what is going on) and I lost it.  We both left meeting but I was mortified. 

So not only am I a crybaby, I'm also a bad wife.

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Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles, It empties today of its strength. ~Corrie ten Boom
Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow. ~Mary Anne Radmacher (thank you beadinglady)

It's been a long journey. TTC since 9/06. multiple IUI's and IVF's and 4 m/c's. IVF#3 = BFP, twins, induced at 34w6d due to baby b passing away (no explanation). Delivered on 35w1d, Baby A - baby girl, and Baby B - baby boy, our little angel.
MTHFR A1298C & C677T, Immune Issues and Factor II

Re: Cried at work today :(

  • This does not make you a bad wife. ?You are not a bad wife. ?

    But I'm sorry you had a bad day and sorry you cried at work. ?I hope it gets easier.?image

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  • awww worms, don't feel guilty.

    How is he feeling?

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  • He's getting better, but still swollen and can't really bend or stretch. 

    I had no idea what this would be like and I had no idea it would be like this for him.  He's a trooper, I can't imagine what it must be like to have your balls moved.  I'm praying this helps and all this isn't for nothing.

     Thanks for asking :)

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    Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles, It empties today of its strength. ~Corrie ten Boom
    Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow. ~Mary Anne Radmacher (thank you beadinglady)

    It's been a long journey. TTC since 9/06. multiple IUI's and IVF's and 4 m/c's. IVF#3 = BFP, twins, induced at 34w6d due to baby b passing away (no explanation). Delivered on 35w1d, Baby A - baby girl, and Baby B - baby boy, our little angel.
    MTHFR A1298C & C677T, Immune Issues and Factor II
  • Aaw... I've fallen apart at work, too and I'm not even as far along in this process as you are. We're still waiting to hear back from our clinic and DH's urologist about scheduling the biopsy.

    Don't feel bad... I know it can be embarassing to cry at work, but this sucks and is heartbreaking and I think you deserve to cry.

  • You dont sound like a bad wife to me! Sounds like you have been a wonderful caregiver! Everyone needs a break sometimes.  I hope your DH is feeling better very soon.
  • I'm so sorry you had a bad day.  You are NOT a bad wife.  You're doing a great job taking care of him.  I'm sure it's really hard to see him in pain, but just know that all of it IS for a reason.  Unfortunately it's painful but it's part of your path to a perfect little baby :)  Hang in there!
  • {{{hugs}}}

    I think we have all been there.  You have a lot on your plate right now, try to give yourself a pass for what happened today.  This IF process has a way of pushing us all to our limits.

  • You are not a crybaby OR a bad wife! ?you are a woman with a lot on her plate who is doing the best she can given the circumstances. ?Hang in there, I can't imagine how hard this must be....?
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  • I had a meltdown at our Executive team meeting yesterday-- totally humiliating.  Basically I cried most of the day yesterday.  I just have so much going on at work and am feeling really stressed about scheduling around this IVF and I could not handle it.

    I'm sorry you had such a crummy experience.  We shouldn't need to deal with feeling humiliated in addition to everything else we are feeling.  Hopefully we will both get our BFPs soon and that will explain it or take the focus off of it for everyone else.

    Hang in there!!

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