Go ahead tell me how irresponsible I am?

jinx75

So DH and I had sex for the first time last night since my latest m/c on the 11th.  I cried like a baby afterwards...actually I was sobbing.  That's neither here nor there.  I usually O between CD12-14 and I know that that can change after a m/c but we weren't protected.  My OB did not require us to abstain from TTC but we are not actively trying anyway.  Yes well today for sh!ts and giggles I checked CM...it's watery....I mean REALLY watery!  Which means I am fertile right?! 

I feel so irresponsible!!

HadleyS

Did you mean that you are TTA?  I read your post twice, but wasn't exactly sure what you meant.

jinx75

I had to edit it because I left out the "not."  We are not actively trying but we are also not abstaining.

Tapatio

If your doctor didn't require you to TTA, it's ok. If you and your DH are ready...more power to you!

HadleyS

jinx75:

I had to edit it because I left out the "not."  We are not actively trying but we are also not abstaining.

Then I don't think it's irresponsible at all.  Your doctor said it was fine.  It might make you a little nervous, but everyone here agrees that doctor knows best.  My doctor also said we could try again right away, so we are in the same boat as you (not trying/not abstaining), although I think we'll end up TTCing for awhile.

I hope some very good things come out of this for you, Jinx

Deepak&Derek

Tapatio:

If your doctor didn't require you to TTA, it's ok.

This

itsmegin

It's not irresponsible if you're medically cleared to TTC again. Do you really not want to get pregnant, or are you just worried it will be hard emotionally?

Junebug060609

Your doctor said it was fine.  You aren't being irresponsible, you're living your life.

FX for you!

jinx75

itsmegin:

It's not irresponsible if you're medically cleared to TTC again. Do you really not want to get pregnant, or are you just worried it will be hard emotionally?

I'm afraid beyond all reasoning that it will end badly again if I do get pregnant!  So afraid that if I do get pregnant I will not even tell my DH until it's viable.  I can't imagine poas and seeing two lines right now.  I guess it's clear I am not emotionally ready huh?  Thus the reason I feel so irresponsible!

nikki04vb

Awww... I know I cried for a while after my d&c- it's hard.  I don't think it was irresponsible though.  If you get pg, you get pg.  If your doc told you it was fine then it is.  Getting KU when you're not really trying is ideal bc you get to skip the stress.  Don't worry yourself.

rock-elle

wickedsugar:

Bad Jinx Bad !!

This, and I am going to make you take a pass through the spanking machine

Honestly though, if you are under no restrictions you are fine medically.  Emotionally, I can understand how it can be a lot.  Is it possible that your watery CM was left over jiz? kwim? 

jinx75

rock-elle:

wickedsugar:

Bad Jinx Bad !!

This, and I am going to make you take a pass through the spanking machine

Honestly though, if you are under no restrictions you are fine medically.  Emotionally, I can understand how it can be a lot.  Is it possible that your watery CM was left over jiz? kwim? 

I kwym and I don't know maybe it is...guess I'll have to wait and see...oh and I already asked DH for a spanking when I get home

Laurakat81

I hope your irresponsibility turns into a healthy baby in 9 months!

 Unless of course you really aren't ready, in which case I take it back (but only for now)!

HadleyS

jinx75:

itsmegin:

It's not irresponsible if you're medically cleared to TTC again. Do you really not want to get pregnant, or are you just worried it will be hard emotionally?

I'm afraid beyond all reasoning that it will end badly again if I do get pregnant!  So afraid that if I do get pregnant I will not even tell my DH until it's viable.  I can't imagine poas and seeing two lines right now.  I guess it's clear I am not emotionally ready huh?  Thus the reason I feel so irresponsible!

(((hugs)))  I hope everything turns out okay no matter what, and I hope that you get to feeling better about it.  It sucks to be in the position where you are worrying all of the time, but I am glad that you have fellow bumpers and your DH to give you spankins when you want/need them.

xnbride

I understand where you are. I had two consecutive losses and yet we were careless and got pregnant with DS2 but I was terrified. Plus the pregnancy was not looking good initially so I definitely was not ready emotionally to handle yet another loss. Fortunately everything turned out well but in retrospect we were definitely not really thinking straight. It is so hard to not TTC when all you want is a baby. GL.

jertie

wickedsugar:

Bad Jinx Bad !!

This!  And...can I borrow the spanking machine when you're done with it? 

twistedmetal

jinx75:

rock-elle:

wickedsugar:

Bad Jinx Bad !!

This, and I am going to make you take a pass through the spanking machine

Honestly though, if you are under no restrictions you are fine medically.  Emotionally, I can understand how it can be a lot.  Is it possible that your watery CM was left over jiz? kwim? 

I kwym and I don't know maybe it is...guess I'll have to wait and see... oh and I already asked DH for a spanking when I get home

i thought we were using spankings for punishment? lol! 

iggy.d

Aw, Jinx. I understand the emotions. But if you weren't given any restrictions, no need to add any additional worry. Spanks for all? ((hugs))

Izabella22

I will if you want me to but... it sounds like you aren't doing anything wrong to even feel bad about so...  Have fun girl, you deserve it!

millejj1

jertie:

wickedsugar:

Bad Jinx Bad !!

This!  And...can I borrow the spanking machine when you're done with it? 

Only if I can get it next. 

psumel13

You are in no way irresponsible. The dr gave you no reason to TTA so I would say go for it. I have a feeling that even if you did get KU it might be hard at first but you would also be happy! Don't beat yourself up over this!

tiffany119

jinx75:

rock-elle:

wickedsugar:

Bad Jinx Bad !!

This, and I am going to make you take a pass through the spanking machine

Honestly though, if you are under no restrictions you are fine medically.  Emotionally, I can understand how it can be a lot.  Is it possible that your watery CM was left over jiz? kwim? 

I kwym and I don't know maybe it is...guess I'll have to wait and see...oh and I already asked DH for a spanking when I get home

 

AHHH! My virgin ears (eyes)!!!  lol

I agree with the other ladies.. if you're ok'd by the doc and truly want a LO then by all means! I think I'd feel the same way if I were in your shoes though.. Your emotions will settle down in time