Lost hope for BFP this cycle :(

cflocco

So, I had some spotting today.  It was very very light spotting and I am trying to stay positive.  But, I had spotting start at 5dpo last cycle. So, looks like this cycle is a bust....sigh.  I'm feeling really down right now.  I was really hoping this cycle was my BFP cycle.  An October baby sounded so nice.  I admire you ladies so much for going through this heartbreak month to month.  Its really starting to break me. 

KaitySueWho

((hugs)) we all have bad days.. Maybe this cycle will  surprise you

twistedmetal

(((really big hug))) 

starrynyt

I'm sorry.  (((hugs)))  FX that you're not out yet this cycle.

lotus88

((hugs)) Like they say, it ain't over until AF shows her ugly fvcking face.  In the meantime, distract yourself with us.  That's my plan.

jerryliljess

Angeleyes5604:

((hugs)) we all have bad days.. Maybe this cycle will  surprise you

Exactly!!  ((big hugs))  My fx for you.

FmrAFBrat

starrynyt:

I'm sorry.  (((hugs)))  FX that you're not out yet this cycle.

This....keep youself busy & you never know.

nikki04vb

I hear ya!  It sucks... every cycle and every BFN sucks... I guess there's nothing else you can do but try again.  And know that you're surrounded (at least on this board) by women who know EXACTLY how you feel.  You're not alone.  Big Hugs!

mizdiz444

((((hugs)))))

EclairAngst

Hey.  One cycle does not predict the next. 

This whole business sucks, but I do hope you have a good outcome at the end of your 2ww. 

jertie

I'm so, so sorry.  ((Huge HUGS))

tmhdmh

im sorry hun ((huge hugs))

jen629

I am sorry you are feelng that way but I hardly think you are out at 5 dpo  nothing would have even implanted yet ....I know it is hard but every cycle is different ..comparing them can make you crazy

LifeInANutshell

{{{{{{ hugs }}}}}}  <<<<<hugs>>>>> ~~~~hugs~~~~ [[[[hugs]]]]

Hope things go your way real soon!

CashewsMommy

jen629:

I am sorry you are feelng that way but I hardly think you are out at 5 dpo  nothing would have even implanted yet ....I know it is hard but every cycle is different ..comparing them can make you crazy

This.

cflocco

Thanks for all the positive thoughts lady.  I am trying to not lose hope yet because it is too early to tell.  But, I tend to think the worst. 

AutumnLeavesFall

Seriously your starting to be that crazy poster again. You posted 3 times about your cycle yesterday.. 3. All the same thing.

A) You are FIVE dpo.

You have been trying for TWO months post m/c and FOUR months in total.

C) Calm down.

Stress is not helping you, and it's drving us crazy. Let you know I had spotting at 11 dpo and I thought I was out.

Walk away, keep busy, stop stressing. Or I'm going to pull my freaking hair out.

xnbride

Its not over until its over! Hang on to hope and when that is too hard to do, then put your hope on layaway for another day. Seriously though, it is such a hard journey. It is like being on a roller coaster every month and it feels like another loss all over again when AF comes. I hope in your case, AF stays away for another 9 months. GL.

emeraudecephiro

You're being a bit silly, don't you think? Please relax. 

jen629

emeraudecephiro:

You're being a bit silly, don't you think? Please relax. 

lol

cflocco

Ok I got the hint.  I'll stop with the crazy posts.  I am just a worrier by nature-I really can't help it.  But, I will try.  Sorry for driving y'all crazy....again!

jinx75

cflocco:

Ok I got the hint.  I'll stop with the crazy posts.  I am just a worrier by nature-I really can't help it.  But, I will try.  Sorry for driving y'all crazy....again!

I am a worrier by nature as well but month after month of obsessing over my cycle only to get pregnant and have another loss has taught me that all the worrying in the world isn't going to change the eventual outcome.  I think finding ways to distract yourself will prove beneficial.

jinx75

cflocco:

Ok I got the hint.  I'll stop with the crazy posts.  I am just a worrier by nature-I really can't help it.  But, I will try.  Sorry for driving y'all crazy....again!

clauseka

Don't count yourself out yet. It's still very early.  I'm hoping you find yourself with that October baby afterall.  Hang in there and try to keep busy (easier said than done I know).  FX for you!

Runnergirl2242

Even thought it happened last cycle your 5dpo spotting could be a good thing. That should be right for implantation so dont worry at 5dpo. You are still in it.

martinimomma

((Hugs)).  So sorry - but don't count yourself out till AF shows her ugly mug.

opallover

I am so sorry you are down. We all get down sometimes. I looked at your chart and your temps are still up. Hopefully you will get surprised this month?

SheriBT

I am sorry.  I am holding out hope for you to get your sticky baby.  ((hugs))

Carolee

I'm sorry.  Don't count yourself out yet though.