Working is making me miserable

ksyknelvr73

I'm the one who said I would be working until my due date or until I went into labor. I'm beginning to think that was a really bad idea. Every single day is a struggle right now. I have a hard time getting out of bed as it is (and I'm exhausted), and then just even getting ready to go to work is a challenge now. The sheer effort of actually taking a shower, doing my makeup and hair and getting dressed in my professional wardrobe is enough to make me almost have an emotional breakdown every morning. On top of that, my work is about a 40 minute drive from my house...so before I leave, I have to pee to make sure I get everything out and then by the time I pull into the work parking lot, I have to pee again and I struggle to make it inside without peeing myself. As if all of that isn't enough, I have to sit at this desk for 8 hours a day and try to pretend to focus on my work when really all I can think about is having a baby and how uncomfortable I am. Plus, with my desk job, my feet swell to a ridiculous level and I'm unable to get them to go down. Then you add in that after my long work day, I have to make that same drive home but you add on exhaustion from me being here all day.

I know I'm whining, and I'm sorry to complain. I want this baby more than anything, but I am just SO OVER working. It's gotten unbearable. I can't go out on leave right now b/c it would cut into my leave for when LO is here and I don't want to take away any time with him. I just know that I still have 3 weeks and 2 days until my due date and I'm not sure how I am supposed to remain working for that entire time without having a breakdown. Would anyone like to join my pity-party?

rach2961

I am there too!  I wish I could be spending more time at home, setting up the nursery, and resting while I can!  I am envious that you are at a desk though.  On my really tired days I feel my patience with my third graders wearing thin and my classroom is a growing mess every day.

DoubleFlyaway

I hear you-- I'm getting ridiculously uncomfortable at my desk, in my maternity work pants.  I basically want to lie around in a bathrobe with no pants on all day.  I'm just going to work from home more and more but probably won't take time off before the baby unless I have to.

I hate to say this, because every time I think it's going to be slow from here on out, some new project crops up, but... I think it's going to be slow from here on out.   I just finished up a huge project, and now all I have left are a couple minor things and a medium-sized unimportant project I've been putting off for two months while doing more important things.  I'm going to do my best to punch those out quickly.  And then maybe I can spend my last week or two mostly lying around doing educational reading and billing it to "Administrative- Other."

Firedancer1013

I hear you.  It does seem like just the whole process of getting ready in the morning is daunting.    By the time I'm done, I almost need a nap.  I had a similar moment (of 'what the heck am I still doing here?') last week.  I am in patient care at a hospital, and was in an isolation room (where I needed to wear a gown, gloves, and face mask) giving an evaluation to a patient.  My assessments sometimes take an hour long, there was no chair to sit on (the patient's family was sitting on all of them, and no one offered to get up- even after they commented on how close I must be to my due date), it was a million degrees in the room, and here I am all gowned up and breathing my own hot air over and over again from the mask.  I was miserable and sweating like a pig/slightly dizzy when I left the room.  It just made me sit there and think, seriously, what the heck am I doing here!  Thankfully, my boss and coworker had a conversation with me Friday afternoon before we left for the weekend and told me to start giving all of my clients over to my replacement, and just trying to kick my feet back for the most part, so that I can continue to be there to cover the things my replacement can't do for the last few weeks.  It was nice to hear that my load will be lessening some soon.

mylesmomma

I totally feel your pain.  Tonight is my last day - but I work a 12 hr overnight shift and DH is trying to convince me to just throw in the towel.  I am so swollen by the time I come home in the morning

greyt00

I have a short commute and casual dress code so I can't empathize with all of your pains, but I'm SO OVER working.  Bleh.  I just DON'T CARE.  My feet/ankles swell up really bad from sitting all day, too.  My current assignment is to figure out a migration plan for the unusual internal project I've been working on for months, and it's really complicated because (blah, blah, blah).  My brain is not working well enough right now to do this!  Arg.  And then I will be gone and not around to deal with it (YAY!) so it just doesn't sound like the best plan. 

Fortunately my boss is very understanding... but it's soooo hard to concentrate.

nicoleandadam

I feel like I could have written this post myself.  I actually called in sick yesterday because I've only been sleeping about 3 hours a night and I was beyond tired.  The only thing I think that is good about still working is that I'm not sitting at home waiting to go into labor.  At least I'm somewhat distracted during the day.  But other than that, working sucks.

sancha66

I can not WAIT to be done working, everyone keeps asking me when I am leaving (as you can see I am VERY busy posting to the bump when i should be working) but I can not afford to leave work yet. I have handed over all my duties to the fill in already as well, which means I spend a lot of time looking for stuff to do and when I do find it, its something I can do from home. My bosses wont let me work from home for some stupid reason and I am just at wits end. I do get up and waddle around every once in a while to keep the swelling at a dull roar and also have found that not eating solid food and instead getting a high calorie fruit smoothie makes it a little easier for me to get thru the day. I still have AM sickness and all that tho, so I know some people cant deal with no solid food. Me? I live on liquids these days (and my AWESOME hubby makes me French Onion Soup from scratch at least once a week so i can get some food in me. I just love that guy)

AACraven85

I can't imagine. I have a flex schedule and I'm having a tough time getting into the office just to do minimal work. I just got here because I had an OB appointment and bloodwork this morning and I'm already thinking about going home and taking a nap. I originally told my boss I'm going to take leave a few days before my due date, but if I can punch out some projects quickly I'm thinking I may move my last day up a few weeks.

christyp80

I feel like I could have written this post as well.  I am still wearing heels every day to work, have a 40 minute commute (when it's not snowing), and am having the worst problems with swelling in my legs.  At my last appointment my OB took one look at my legs and told me I had at least 5 lbs of water weight in my lower legs alone.  Ouch!  I've been working from home 1 day a week and it is heaven to be able to put my laptop on my built-in shelf belly and kick my feet up in the recliner.  Once I hit 38 weeks, I'm planning to tell my boss that I'm too big to get behind the wheel of the car, and work from home until LO is born.  A little white lie, but oh well.  I can't wait!!!

a.graves

Wow all you ladies are so lucky!!! I wish I could sit all day long at a desk. Instead I am on my feet for 10-12 hours a day. I lift up to 50 pounds sometimes, and I deal with other people's mistakes. Not going to say what I do. BUT, I would love to sit at a desk for only 8 hours a day.

But I am so over work as well!

Kizat727

Oh do I hear you on this one! I also have a 40 minute commute and sit at a desk all day. My feet swelled up last week, to the point where it looked like I had a fat roll over my ankles (wherever they went). I was just telling my coworker that I am completely checked out and in a completely different state of mind. It's hard too, because I'm a graphic designer, so not being able to sit down and focus makes it nearly impossible to do projects. Luckily I do have the ability to work from home if need be, but until today I felt guilty about taking advantage of it.

What changed today? I have some coworkers who completely lack common sense and courtesy. We have a fairly small parking lot where we park in the same spot every single day. I've always been second closest to the office door for the past 3 years, but the last two days, I am getting here 10 minutes late (can't get ready as fast as I used to), and this stupid sales rep has been taking my spot. I had to park in the only spot left (farthest from door, next to snow) which was really tight. I couldn't fit out of my car!!!!!! Took me 5 minutes to keep pulling in and out, until I could squeeze my belly out the driver side door. Needless to say, I'll be working from home sooner than expected.

vflipo

I actually feel better when I'm at work (and I'm on my feet all day). I'm just tired of working because I wish DH made enough for me to stay home Work keeps me busy, so time goes by quickly. When I get home I feel all the pain of standing and squatting all day, though. I wish I could sit at a desk and put my feet up so badly.

magdalina.h

I put my make up on when I get to work and I usually throw my hair up into a pony tail, but I've always done that. I leave my flip flops at work and change into those while I'm sitting at my desk or if I need to go close by and no one will say anything. I also have a back support and a pillow on my chair to help with the soreness.

Erika9609

Seriously, I could have written this post today word. for. word.

I was just telling DH tonight how I'm SO over working.  By 2pm every afternoon I'm so unbelievably uncomfortable and my back/ribs are KILLING me.  And, like you, my feet/legs are HUGE, and I can barely bend my ankles to walk.  None of my shoes fit me anymore, and I have to wear black slippers to work every day.  

Just know that you're not alone, and we're all going through this!  Hang in there, mama!  Our babies will be here before we know it. 

karakaye

i'm SO over going into work, as well. i keep finding myself wondering if they realize just how much i DON'T CARE right now.

NewBlue

I'll join.  I always swore I wouldn't take off work early but I am really starting to consider it.  I get to sit almost all day and luckily haven't had any swelling this pregnancy but I am so tired and sick of having contractions that aren't leading anywhere.  Since my son was born at 36w3d, I really thought I would be done by now so the longer it goes on the more frustrated I get.  Not to mention I am SOOO sick of people saying "You're still here?", "Haven't had that baby yet?" etc.  While my husband has been amazing, I also have a 2 year old that really wants mommy's attention when we get home.  I litterally crawl into bed as soon as we say his prayers - only to get a terrible night sleep.  LOL.  Thanks for letting me join your pity party.  Helps to vent.