Finally going to OB today

astroMom

I'm also headed to the OB today.  I started having major breakdowns in November, but I didn't want meds while BFing.  So, I started with a therapist in December.  It was *better*, but I still felt bad.  The therapy has mostly turned into more of couples therapy, and I just still don't feel like I have coping strategies, even though it has helped to resolve some things with hubby.  So, of course that is a weight off.

This weekend, though, I was SO irritable.  I wasn't even sure WHY.  Monday I was breaking down crying, and DH & MIL (who was going to watch DS while I went to work) both wanted me to call in sick and go back to bed.  I'm not the type to call in sick often;  when I had MONO, I still barely took time off work.  I am a workaholic, but I called in sick anyway. 

I'm still really hoping to get this resolved w/o meds, but I think I'm at the point where I realize healthy mommy is way more important...I'm just glad DH's mom is so supportive, bc I told my mom yesterday, and she just didn't seem to get it.  I didn't feel any sympathy or support from her that I had finally gotten to the point of needing to go to the OB. 

totallyshocked

Happy mommy = happy baby and PPD is like a disease. If you had a cold or diabetes would you not take meds for it? Dont be ashamed and do whats best for you. Best of luck and remember you have a whole board of moms here that have been through and/or are going through it and are here for you.

MrsJeffers2006

I am also going to my OB today. It's a tough decision to make, but I just try to remember that I WILL feel better, and going to the dr will put me down that road. 

Good luck to you, it's really hard to go through this.  

astroMom

Yep, I am happy with my decision to start Zoloft.  I really hope it kicks in, soon.  I really hate that I don't want to be alone with the baby.  I've had days over the last 5 months that I enjoyed alone.  However, I feel like I no longer trust my instincts, and I have a lot of back pain, so I get really stressed when I have to bend a lot to care for him.  (I'm in physical therapy for that now, too.)  Oh, and my family seems to be a lot more supportive now.  One of my relatives even let me know she went on meds after her baby was born, and I had no idea! 

So, I am feeling a little more hopeful.  I now also feel more like DH is my ally instead of the person I am fighting.  He has been so accommodating this week with all my "demands".  I still have some uncontrollable feelings and a hard time sleeping in the early hours of the morning, but I hope this weekend does me some good!