Board Stalking!!!

SheLovesMrHip

Dang it, today I board stalked the forum month of my due date! My DH told me to get out of there and post here right now!!! I really want to start trying again, is that selfish of me since I am still going through mc as we speak?? Ok ya shouldnt have gone on there!! Tears filling my eyes! Its not fair, for any of us to be here on this evil evil board!! The only positive thing here is how many warm hearts are here! I know that every single gal on here has a different story but non the less we have all lost something that we worked so hard for and wanted. I went over to that other board and saw tickers that looked like mine. Now I have no preg ticker. Can someone create a happiness ticker? Counting backwards to the way things were? Well maybe not, I guess that wouldnt change things, just repeat them. Im rambling but I have to vent!!! I am dreading going to my obgyn for my US to show my emptiness. How bad will that suck? Im 31, been with my DH 6 years, married for 3 months, bought a bigger house with a yard for kids, and here we are, having an MC. Really? I have no girlfriends to talk to this about because they all have babies. Hello baby dust where art thou???????

KaLa2011

I can relate to the last half of your post. I am 28, have been with DH for 8 years, and was so happy to finally be able to tell my friends and family that we were pregnant. Flash forward to last Monday and it all came crashing down. I lurked on my month board so I didn't ever really know what was going on, but a friend just announced her pregnancy on Facebook and it turns out not only did she find out the same day as me, but has the same due date I was supposed to have.

 

We just have to try and get back to square one day by day, and when thats too hard to handle, hour by hour.

(and stay away from those month boards, and facebook  ) 

SheLovesMrHip

I have been good and havent even went on my facebook, but we had only told our parents and well a few people at work. Thank god that didnt circulate on FB, I would have crapped myself!!!

MrsMitty08

I can totally relate.  I feel like something was taken away from us and it seems like everyone else has it.  I have a hard time even seeing happy pregnant people who don't even seem very grateful. 

DH and I were planning a big move this summer to be closer to family to help us with LO and now I don't want to move until we have a baby...I feel like it was our purpose and now it is gone and it has just turned everything upside down.  

I'll be 31 this year and all of my friends here either have kids or are pregnant.  My friends that haven't started TTC yet live far away.  Not having really good friends to talk to about this makes it even harder.

I am so scared about our next pregnancy...what if, God forbid, it happens again.  I never thought we'd have any difficulties and now that we've had one m/c, I feel like we are on the road of "difficulty".  ugh.  

I know some of that sounded over the top but it's my emotions speaking...

KaLa2011

I didn't want to tell anyone, just because i am overly cautious like that anyhow, but DH was so stoked, he told a couple friends, then his parents, then I HAD to tell my parents, and so on. He has already decided next time "I think I need to wait to tell people huh?"...luckily it was a small enough group of people it didn't take too much emotional energy to call and tell them the bad news.

I guess thats why it freaks me out that the girl is already posting about it on FB. 8 weeks along seems too soon. But that could be the bitter part of me coming out.

Hope you have a better night/day tomorrow!  

 

taurus424

I can understand your reference to a happiness ticker that counts backwards to the way it was....My father died in july and so when Christmas rolled around...I thought to myself that there wouldnt be anything harder to go through and that as soon as this day was over i would just stop sobbing and feel better....well then came the 20 week US date only to find out that my baby had multiple heart defects and no brain formed and then died....well at that moment I longed for the pain that i felt on Christmas day...it seemed so much more manageable....sucks....its sucks sucks sucks sucks.

tiffany119

Oh, I'm so sorry dear.. I haven't been to the Sept board. But last night I did go to the PgAL board..and Baby Names I think. BIG mistakes!!! Don't feel bad about wanting to TTC right away..I think we all feel that way! I was one of the ones that told EVERYONE about ours.. I don't know what's worse..having to face everyone knowing or being able to hide it and try to fake a smile. That's a risk we knew we were taking, just never thought we'd have to face it.

Just know that we are all here for you and we all care about how you feel! Big big hugs to you...and DON'T go back there until you're pg again! Baby dust to you (start stocking up now for when you're ready to TTC!)

Mr&Mrs.B

lanoue25:

Im 31, been with my DH 6 years, married for 3 months, bought a bigger house with a yard for kids, and here we are, having an MC. Really? I have no girlfriends to talk to this about because they all have babies. Hello baby dust where art thou???????

 

Too similar....I'm 31, I've been with my husband for 8 years, we have been in our "forever home" for 2 and 1/2 years, and I still have the guest room that is empty, and I refuse to decorate, because DANGIT, it is going to be a nursery, soon....I hope.....*sigh*