I did my HSG yesterday

heathergirl67

and everything was as normal as can be.  It was actually pretty cool to watch the monitor and see my uterus filling up with dye and then my fallopian tubes fill with dye.  I didn't realize how long and curled they are!  I also saw the dye empty out of my fallopian tubes without hesitation.  I didn't have to shift my body, there was no need for multiple tries, etc.  The tech and gynocologist confirmed as much. My RE will be calling me to make an appointment to go over the results.  I really don't feel like paying $100 so he can tell me what I saw with my own eyes, though.  And since our plan is to TTC on our own for the next four months, I really don't think the consult is necessary.  Do you?

 And I finally took another- even huger- step:  I made an appointment for therapy.  We lost our baby two years ago and I've been depressed pretty much ever since then. At first it was just about losing the baby, but it's mostly been about my fear that we won't be able to have biological children.  If I even think about it I can't breathe.  I can't explain how thoroughly devestating that would be.  And all of the trying, waiting, and constant disappointment has given me a really negative attitude about the future.  I have no hope that I'll be able to concieve again, I am sure that if I did get pregnant again I would lose it, and I was even sad to learn that the results of my HSG were normal.  Because I need to know WHY this isn't working, yk?  I thought I could just push down all of my bad feelings and avoid thinking about them, but it's starting to affect my relationships with others, too.  So in to see the therapist I go. I'm scared.

Oh, and I also hope that therapy increases my odds of getting pregnant.

As for the HSG: the procedure itself was, at most, uncomfortable. But the cramps once I got in the car to go home were awful!!! I hadn't remembered to take a pain killer before I left home, but when I got home I did and it helped 100%.  If you get it done, I recommend that you try pooing when you get home.  It helped me.

And I may have had a couple of drinks last night and I may have coerced my husband to fool around with me against nurse's orders.  Oops.  I was supposed to wait 24 hours and I think I waited about 9.  But I took all of my antibiotics and so I hope that won't be a problem. 

Oh yeah, and I had very minimal spotting.  Totally worth it, IMO.

Okay, that's all for my ridiculously long update!  Love you girls!

GuppyAmy

Regarding your HSG results: I would ask the doctor when he calls if there is a way they can just tell you them over the phone or in a couple of months when your ready for medicated cycles? And if I were you, I'd put off the 100 dollar appointment.

Regarding therapy: It sounds like this is probably going to be a better place for you to spend your money right now. I hope you find a therapist that understands you and you like. Maybe the combo of being in a better mental place and the HSG will help get your pregnant. Good luck with everything! I'm sorry you're going through this. 

ColleenS629

I'm glad the HSG went well! Your experience was much better than mine... I had really painful cramping and bleeding for days. I hope this is what you needed to get KU!

jolieandscott

ColleenS629:

I'm glad the HSG went well! Your experience was much better than mine... I had really painful cramping and bleeding for days. I hope this is what you needed to get KU!

Mine was awful, too. I hope this helps you!

mlmtgg

heathergirl! I am glad that all went well with your HSG, and I really think that therapy is the best idea. having a neutral person that is there just for you to talk through these things is so important - with all that you've been through. hugs.

cutebride73

Maybe the dr can just do a phone consult instead of having to go in.  I have had several of those and I don't get charged for them.  I guess every RE's policies are different though.  If they want to discuss a treatment plan, I think they like you to come in. 

I think the therapy is a great idea.  I am sure it will help.  DH and I ahve been seeing a counselor, the stress of the losses and trouble conceiving was just weighing on us both.  It has really helped with our communication as a couple.  I am a counselor, so I guess maybe I'm partial, but I always think that therapy can help, as long as you have a good counselor.  Good luck - I hope it really helps.  (((hugs)))

babes12

Good news about the HSG!  My RE still never went over the results of my HSG but told me right then and there that my tubes were beautiful so i'm not sure there's much more to say if your tubes are clear?  and i agree w/ what others have said maybe just a phone call or talk about it later on. 

and i'm glad you decided on therapy, believe me, i've thought about it tons but could never follow through w/ it.  It's great your going, i still think one day i'll go.  Let us know how it goes.

 

butterfly843

Glad your HSG went well, I would call and see if the dr can go over the results on the phone with you. I think it is a good idea you made an appt for therapy. Please let us know how it goes. I have been back and forth about going and I really think it would help me a lot, but I have been scared.

Fififa21

I?m glad the HSG went smoothly. Good luck with the therapist, I hope it helps you! :-)

Olive44

I'm glad the HSG was normal.  As for the therapy, it sounds like a great idea.  I just made my first appointment yesterday with a therapist that specializes in infertility.  I'm having those same fears as you and it's very overwhelming.  (((hugs)))

heathergirl67

Olive44:

I'm glad the HSG was normal.  As for the therapy, it sounds like a great idea.  I just made my first appointment yesterday with a therapist that specializes in infertility.  I'm having those same fears as you and it's very overwhelming.  (((hugs)))

Yes.  Overwhelming. That's the perfect word for how it feels. To even think about those things gives me a mini panic attack. I irrationally feel like if I talk about it and acknowledge that it's a possibility, then it will be my fate. I know that doesn't make sense... but I'm still really nervous.

 Thanks for all of the encouragment ladies. This can feel like such a lonely process when you don't have any IF friends IRL. I really appreciate it.

LilMaggs

GuppyAmy:

Regarding your HSG results: I would ask the doctor when he calls if there is a way they can just tell you them over the phone or in a couple of months when your ready for medicated cycles? And if I were you, I'd put off the 100 dollar appointment.

Regarding therapy: It sounds like this is probably going to be a better place for you to spend your money right now. I hope you find a therapist that understands you and you like. Maybe the combo of being in a better mental place and the HSG will help get your pregnant. Good luck with everything! I'm sorry you're going through this. 

This!

 *hugs*  I'm so sorry it's rough, but I really think the therapy would be a great idea for you. 

mrs.pooks

i am glad to hear that your hsg went well! good luck with the therapy (hugs)