I'm a wreck :(

StarlitRN · January 2011

My grandfather passed away this weekend and the funeral is today so I had to find a babysitter for DD. This is my first time leaving her with anyone but DH and I am an emotional wreck (knowing I'm saying goodbye to the man who raised me isn't helping). I lucked out and had a girl who went to nursing school with DH and I offer to babysit. I know she is in great hands since she is a fellow NICU nurse (great in emergencies!), former nanny, and an AP mommy to a sweet 2yr old boy (who I hope entertains DD). She has tons of carriers and is used to high maintenance kiddos...but I am still a wreck.

I always thought my first time leaving DD with a sitter would be so DH and I could have a date night...guess not.

Quazel · January 2011

I am so sorry for your loss. I hope today goes smoothly for your DD. My thoughts are headed your family's way.

StrawberryAlarmClock · January 2011

I'm so very sorry for your loss. You couldn't be leaving DD with anyone better, but you're still leaving DD and, like you said, it's certainly not for a happy reason. I'm sure your sadness over the loss of your grandfather is not helping matters. Feeling separation from your baby when you are already acutely aware of the separation from the man who raised you has to hurt. Give her great big hugs, call a lot. Have your babysitter text pics and videos of her smiling and having fun. That's the only thing that helped me on my first day back to work. (((((huge hugs))))) T&P. I'll be thinking of you today.

webMistress0609 · January 2011

So sorry for your loss mama. I like SAC's suggestion of texting pics to you. I'm so glad that you found someone who sounds like a great babysitter though.

Lotte134 · January 2011

{{hugs}} I'm so sorry for your loss and for being 'forced' into leaving your daughter before you are really ready. PP had some great advice - it will definitely help if you can see that she is doing fine. And just remember it is only for a few hours and you'll be home with her again (and hopefully know that she is fine with a sitter so that you can get that date night scheduled!).

robyn2201 · January 2011

I'm sorry for your loss! Have the sitter send you pics while you away from your DD. It always makes my day when dh does this.

glasgow_girl · January 2011

I'm so sorry - please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

At least you know DD will be well taken care of. Big, big hugs.

nekorayne · January 2011

I'm so sorry. This must be such a hard combo. ::hugs:: She sounds like she is in great hands. I will keep you in my thoughts.

Harper'smom · January 2011

I'm so sorry, what a tough day. I coudn't think of a better babysitter though. Try to remember the importance of balance and give yourself some time to grieve, even if that means taking people up on their offers to babysit or help out.