relapse days

pnkfaerie

I have had two of the worse days of my life. I'm depressed, to the point of not wanting to get out of bed, or crawling right back into it during the day. I cry for hours and hours and I just ache. I feel so empty and my arms ache and feel heavy. I'm supposed to be ovulating this week too, i'm using an opk but haven't gotten the "Go" yet. it doesn't matter anyway. My husband wont talk to me but he doesn't want to do it so therefore i'm under the assumption he's not interested and is actually tta even though he keeps telling me he wants to try. On top of all that, the piles of snow outside make it so I can't even go for a walk so i have some crazy cabin fever feeling going on. I just feel like hell and know that the only understanding i'm gonna get is here where i'm sure everyone feels it every once and while. Normally I have more better days than bad but this is the worst weekend relapse I've had since my son was born... I'm at the point where I want to give up and just not wake up tomorrow... :

IslandEnchantress

I am so sorry you are feeling this badly, and that you're going through this at all. I'm wishing for you that it gets easier soon. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. Hugs!!

Fallon621

Oh No Sweetie don't say that!!  You need to wake up because you are going to get pregnant again and have a little take home baby before you know it!  I know about having bad days.  One Day I will be fine and the next I am completely bitter and angry which then turns into sad.  Everything you are feeling is "normal" as far as I'm concerned and as far as this grieving process goes.  I am so sorry for all that you are going through sending big huge (((HUGS))) your way.

JThomas221

I'm sorry you had such a rough weekend. I don't know your story, but I see on your ticker that it's only been a little over a month since your loss. I'm so sorry that you had to experience that. Grief is a long process and you have to allow yourself the time to heal. It's completely normal to have really bad days once in a while, even after having a lot of good days. I know it probably doesn't make it any easier for you, especially on the days you're feeling down, but just know that you're not alone. I hope you feel a little better soon!