Hello!
While I'm sure you are a wonderful group of people, I really wish I wasn't here. I started a M/C last night. I was only 6 weeks along...but I hate this. This is my second m/c in a year. This one is worse. The pain is more intense and the bleeding is horrible. I just want it all to stop.
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i am sorry for your loss. There are no words to describe losing a baby. Another angel gets wings.
DC#2 born silent at 22 weeks 1.11.11
Dc#3 born vbac 1/2012 <bra DC#4 born VBAC 3/2014
Missed M/C discoverd at 10w5d measuring 6w6d on 12/3/10 said goodbye 12/12/10 EDD 6/26/11 "this too shall pass"
DS Born 9/29/2005 via c-section (breech)
BFP #3 3/7/11 - EDD 11/17/11
Betas: @14dpo-182 @18dpo-854!! @21dpo-3124!!!
3-27-11 150 BPM!!!!
He's a BOY!!!! Kieran Thomas
I am so sorry for your losses. I really understand what you mean when you say you wish you weren't here. I was/am the same way but these woman are an incredible group and are very supportive. Being here has brought me such peace and comfort these past few weeks. I hope in time you feel the same. I hope you can find something for the pain because you don't need to be in pain physically AND emotionally. Take Care!
DD#1 9-4-04 *** DD#2 10-15-07
BFP#3 10-25-10 *EDD 7/1/11 * missed m/c @ 13w3d
BFP#4 7-30-11 *EDD 4/8/12 ~ DD#3 born 4/4/12
oh, I'm so sorry. I had a miscarriage five years ago, at only 4 weeks, and I realized then that I should be grateful cause that must be as easy as it gets. Even so, it was the saddest thing that's ever happened to me, and it took me years to stop thinking about it. My sister had a miscarriage this year at 8 weeks, and when what would have been the due date came she had to leave work early because she couldn't stop crying. There's just no accounting for how deeply, deeply sad it is to know that you had a secret life and then a secret death take place inside you- its so intensely personal.
Whatever happens, though, don't believe at all that its your fault, or that somehow *you* weren't what you needed to be as a mother. I know that I believed for a long time that God in his justice had spared my baby from having me as its parent! But while God *does* have a plan, and have that life in his hands, believe that you are wonderful, will be an amazing parent, and will be given the strength to get through this, and have that much more compassion and love for other people in pain and loss...
I am so sorry for your loss. I know the feeling of just wanting it to be over. My doctor did give me some help with pain medications. I hope that this part of it is over for you soon!