Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss

NE1 else feel angry? (Siggy warning, pic of DS)

I surprised that I feel more angry than sad.  Its just not what I was expecting.  Maybe its because its my 3rd loss and I'm just in disbelief that this keeps happening.  Not sure, just wondering if anyone else is feeling more anger than anything else...
 




 

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Re: NE1 else feel angry? (Siggy warning, pic of DS)

  • A few days ago, I hit the anger stage.  I was more angry than anything else.  Now I am feeling much better.  Not too angry, not too sad, more of just an acceptance and eagerness to become a mother.  I am deeply sorry for you losses.

     

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  • I go through different emotions... Like right now I am sad.  Earlier today I was not just angry but P.O.'d & am starting to feel that way again.  People ask me when we will start trying again & that angers me & it also makes me scared.  I was all gun ho about TTC 2 days ago.  Today I am scared to death.  What if there is something wrong with me?  What if this happens again?  a lot of "what if's" basically. 

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  • I have felt scared more than anything.  If someone could tell me for certain that I will deliver a healthy baby someday, then I could deal with this much better.  I'm just scared this will happen over and over again to me and I'll never have a baby.
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    I have felt scared more than anything.  If someone could tell me for certain that I will deliver a healthy baby someday, then I could deal with this much better.  I'm just scared this will happen over and over again to me and I'll never have a baby.

    I asked my doc if this m/c grants me a "free pass" for the next PG.  He chuckled and said "I wish it worked that way..."

     




     

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  • Yes, Im starting to feel more angry anyway. Initially i was sad, then there was christmas and a lot of family stuff and I think i was sorta on delay to deal with my grief. Now im angry, angry that this had to happen to me again, angry i have to start all over again with trying to concieve, angry that I will have to go through anxious weeks of early pregancy that I already covered if I am lucky enough to get pregnant again, angry that everyone around me is moving on with their pregnancies.......then im angry about a bunch of other things that are seemingly unrelated to pregnancy, so I think the angry feelings are bubbling up and spilling over! and im usually not an angry/bitter person :).   I went to the gym last night for the first time in a week, that really helped those angry feelings dissipate- at least for the night!

     Hope you have/find something that will help get you through it and Im sorry for your losses. 

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  • I think anger is part of the grieving process, and to not know why makes it worse. It's just one of the emotions that you let yourself feel. When I started getting angry, I got into a physically routine of working out/yoga or would clean/organize to get the anger out. When your sad, you cry. When your happy, you smile. When your angry you don't have any physical outlet so, it honestly helps to get moving to let the anger out. ((hugs)) I hope you can find something to help you move past the anger.
  • When I first found out my baby was gone I was sad, but the anger I felt was just consuming. I was so incredibly mad. All I could think was, "How dare God do this to me a second time". After about a week or so, though, the anger started to subside and the sadness set in more. Everyone's reaction to a loss is different, there's no right or wrong thing to feel. Just give yourself time.
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