I surprised that I feel more angry than sad. Its just not what I was expecting. Maybe its because its my 3rd loss and I'm just in disbelief that this keeps happening. Not sure, just wondering if anyone else is feeling more anger than anything else...
"You reach deeper until you can find the strength. That's all life is, one big fight after another."
Angel babies: 9/19/07, 10/08/09, 1/05/11
Re: NE1 else feel angry? (Siggy warning, pic of DS)
A few days ago, I hit the anger stage. I was more angry than anything else. Now I am feeling much better. Not too angry, not too sad, more of just an acceptance and eagerness to become a mother. I am deeply sorry for you losses.
BTW, you sure do have a cutie pie in that siggy!
BFP 12/05/10 (EDD 8/8/11), empty gestational sac 12/31/10, natural miscarriage 01/05/11
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I go through different emotions... Like right now I am sad. Earlier today I was not just angry but P.O.'d & am starting to feel that way again. People ask me when we will start trying again & that angers me & it also makes me scared. I was all gun ho about TTC 2 days ago. Today I am scared to death. What if there is something wrong with me? What if this happens again? a lot of "what if's" basically.
BFP #2 12/31/2010 (EDD 9/1/11) -- Natrual m/c 1/9/10
BFP #3 12/20/2011 - EDD 8/25/12
u/s 1/6/12 - HB & beautiful bean
A/S 4/2 - It's a Girl!!!
RCS on 8/20/12
I asked my doc if this m/c grants me a "free pass" for the next PG. He chuckled and said "I wish it worked that way..."
"You reach deeper until you can find the strength. That's all life is, one big fight after another."
Angel babies: 9/19/07, 10/08/09, 1/05/11
Yes, Im starting to feel more angry anyway. Initially i was sad, then there was christmas and a lot of family stuff and I think i was sorta on delay to deal with my grief. Now im angry, angry that this had to happen to me again, angry i have to start all over again with trying to concieve, angry that I will have to go through anxious weeks of early pregancy that I already covered if I am lucky enough to get pregnant again, angry that everyone around me is moving on with their pregnancies.......then im angry about a bunch of other things that are seemingly unrelated to pregnancy, so I think the angry feelings are bubbling up and spilling over! and im usually not an angry/bitter person
. I went to the gym last night for the first time in a week, that really helped those angry feelings dissipate- at least for the night!
Hope you have/find something that will help get you through it and Im sorry for your losses.
BFP #2 11/3/10; BO at u/s 10w6d 12/16/10; Natural MC 1/7/11; D&C 4/21/11
BFP #3 10/27/11 Please stick, LO!! 2/6/12 It's a Girl! Alexis Grace born 6/29/12
BFP#4 4/27/14 Stick, stick, stick!! 8/11/14 It's a Boy! Evan Wesley born 1/8/15
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