such a better day today (warning-DDs mentioned)

LDW80

Yesterday can just suck it!  I cried the whole day because I was missing being pregnant so badly and wanted this baby back in me alive.  I hate having days like that and I know I will have more in the future.  I am like on a every other or every 2 days schedule of "feeling-sorry-for-myself-pity-party".  I was afraid I was going to have another day like that today.  The weather has been so gloomy/snowy/cold....blah.  Anyway, I woke up this morning to my DD's and husband bringing me breakfast in bed (for my birthday) and got a really good work-out this morning.  It felt so great to run out all my aggression/anger/sadness that had been piling up.  To top off the morning today the sun is shining in Northern Illinois and it has lead me to believe that it is my LO smiling down on me wishing me a happy birthday and telling me he/she is doing ok.  I have to look at it that way to help accept this loss.

 I hope you all are having a good day today  (if not, hugs to you!!!)

clarks415

I am so happy to hear you are having a good birthday I have a DS who helps me through everyday. He is almost 4 yr old and knew about the pregnancy and when he sees me upset he hugs me and tells me the baby is an angel with Jesus. Just having him and my DH makes it so much easier. 

I am the same as you. I had a really good day yesterday, then I was making my son's PB&J  for lunch. I don't know, the next thing I knew there were just tears coming down my cheeks. I couldn't even explain what came over me. You are right, I think it is right to just except there will be days of anger, sadness, jealousy... It all happens.

lc&jw

Happy birthday to you! I'm glad to hear that today has been a better day and that you feel more at peace. So sweet of your husband and daughters to bring you breakfast in bed.

Having been through this before, I know that healing from this is an emotional roller coaster. The first few weeks are just awful. After that, the bad days are still there, but as time goes on, they become fewer and farther between. Hurray for a good day on your birthday! I hope that this positive mood follows you throughout your day.

LDW80

THank you ladies! 

lavril

Yaay!  I'm so glad you had a good day today.  Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!!