Exhausted.

vitan

I am utterly exhausted. I spent all last night arguing with DH and trying to get him understand (which will never happen) why I'm feeling what I'm feeling. He just can't understand why we can't just move on and be happy for my BIL/SIL. I told him this has little to do with them, though I don't agree with it but that's the least of my problems, and more to do with my loss. I mean, I just found out Sunday! Do I not have time to deal with the news and go through the motions? Apparently not.

I have to congratulate my SIL before they start asking questions, which I understand. That family are such meddlers and the moment I don't respond, the accusations will fly and I don't want them to know what happened. That I can understand and I was planning on doing it but in my own time. That was pushed forward to today. I ended up sending her a short congratulatory email and it was hard. Now I dread the response but I have to put on that cheery face to keep the sharks at bay. 

Some guys get it. Most guys don't. Put my DH in the latter. He said he dealt with what happened and he's moved on to our next plans and that he hates seeing me miserable. He sure has a crappy way of handling it. 

Jen&Louie

((((Hugs)))) I'm so sorry that of all people, your DH is giving you a hard time.  Even if he doesn't understand, he needs to respect that people grieve in their own time and that it is a very individual process.  I hope that he can come around to getting at least that much.