Lurked where I shouldn't have. . .

lotus88

I rarely do it, but it's never good. It's never healing. I don't know why I let myself follow through. Just looked at the June 2011 board. I can't believe how far along they are. 18 weeks? They're finding out sexes. It's so not fair.  They're on some train that I wasn't allowed to stay on. It sucks.  I don't think I should ever really do the math to figure out how far along I would've been. The details seem more hurtful than the blur of just knowing generally. Just needed to vent. Get it out of my head so I could do something else. 

Fallon621

Ahhh I find my self looking over there too. I dont know why we do this to our selves?!?   I would have been 16w1d today and was due June 26th. 

lotus88

I was supposed to be due June 18th.  Perfect to have my family around me (when school lets out). And the day after my dad's birthday.

CheesyPeas

June 15th here, and I find myself going there every now and then too and it hurts like heck every single time.  I find the bump pics the hardest.  We're at square one while they're already showing, finding out genders, picking out furniture, etc.  It sucks.  A lot.

pnkfaerie

I had my son on thanksgiving, he was due Mar 20th, I would have been exactly 30 weeks today...it kills me...

Fallon621

lotus88:

I was supposed to be due June 18th.  Perfect to have my family around me (when school lets out). And the day after my dad's birthday.

My EDD was perfect for us also because i was PG with DS all throughout the summer and was really big in the heat.  and Also june 21st is my dadas birthday AND My birthday and it would have been great because i was born on my dads birthday and fathers day and would have been awesome if the baby were born that day to or close to.

funkymonkeyohyeahhh

May 29th was my due date. It would have been our wedding anniversary and the "perfect due date" to avoid being pregnant in Texas heat and DH (currently a student) getting to spend all summer with LO.  Like you all, I somehow find myself still lurking on the May board. When everyone finally started showing, I cried. When they all started posting about finding out the sex, I cried. Now they're all decorating nurseries and, finally, 2 weeks ago I had to forbid myself from lurking anymore.  I haven't admitted to anyone that I still lurk there.

This whole thing sucks.

88eve88

I started out on the June 2011 board too.  My EDD was June 25th, and it was perfect for being a teacher.  I wouldn't have interrupted the school year very much at all.  Even my dentist asked me how I timed everything so perfectly.   I sneaked a peek at the June 2011 board once too and in hindsight, it wasn't a good idea.  It just reminded me of all the pregnancy experiences I wasn't having.  I look forward to using my (more complicated than necessary) m/c experience to help others, but also to be a part of another board.  My fingers are crossed for all of you!