Such a difficult week...

Jen&Louie

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I've been waiting to have a natural miscarriage and had to schedule a D&C for this Thursday just in case it doesn't happen on it's own.  After reading through what it entails here, I am even more nervous as I never realized it is actual surgery and that I'll have to be under anesthesia. 

Then, to add insult to injury, my doctor's office called today to inform me that I will have a $250 co-pay.  I know it is a small thing that means nothing in the whole scheme of things.  I'm just pissed and bitter that this is the last thing I want to have done and now I have to fork out a decent sum of money when I get to the surgical center. (Yes, I know it is an irrational thought but, it's how I feel right now).

Then, yesterday we found out that my DH's cousin's 18 month old child lost her year long battle with lukemia.  It is so tragic and I am not coping well already.  I am afraid that I'm going to completely lose it at the memorial service which will be unfair to the parents and siblings of this por child. Just feeling like a tangle of terrible emotion now and trying to figure out how to get through it all.

I hate this week

vitan

Oh my, I am so sorry for the unfortunate news you've endured so far.

I didn't have a D&C but from what I've read that while it's scary, it's something that can be handled. If only we could get the help mentally. 

And I am extremely saddened to hear about your cousin. Childhood cancer is just cruel. I send you the best thoughts during this week. 

Froggy76

I'm so sorry about all the bad news you've had recently.

Don't be too scared of the D&C.  You'll just go to sleep and wake up feeling like only a few minutes have passed, and it will be all over.  I decided to have a D&E last Friday because I was much more scared of sitting around, waiting for the pain of natural miscarriage.  The procedure was not bad at all and I'm relieved to know that it's all over.

ELF4321

Jen, 

I still come on this board occasionally and saw this post -- I don't blame you for wanting to avoid the d&c.  Have you discussed with your doctor the possibility of inducing miscarriage with medications instead of going straight to a d & c?  It's usually effective up to 10 weeks and, although it can make the cramping more painful than a natural miscarriage, it could help you avoid the d & c.  Is there some reason your doc doesn't want to let you wait for the m/c to happen on its own or to try inducing it?     

PM me if you want to discuss my experience and research when I went through this in October.