a step forward and a step back..

ssf10

I have been on celexa for a little over 3 months now and have been doing pretty well on it.  That is until here recently.  I find myself getting agggervated easily again.  I have a lot of things stressing me out too.  I have been trying to get stuff situated with my college classes and thats all a mess and DD has developed this habbit of literally throwing fits.  You can sit her down for just a second and shes screaming bloody fvcking murder.  She screams in my face often and always tries to wiggle out of my arms and that annoys me to no end.  I have been thinking a lot lately about my life before I had her and I hate to even admit this but I miss it!  I love my daughter, but I just feel like I cant do right by her.  I would miss her if I didn't have her and I hate thinking that way.  I will go ahead and say she was a unplanned pregnancy I didn't want children for another 3 years atleast and was on BC but took a medication that fvcked it up.  I haven't finished college yet and work as a CNA right now.  Which I don't make 'great' money.  I want Hailey to have everything and I just feel at a loss right now.  Plus she has some terrible reflux and was pretty sick with all of that in her first atleast 2 months of life.  Plus had jaundice pretty bad.  I guess I'm feeling mostly overwhelmed and I had to get it out.  Thanks for letting me vent.

totallyshocked

I too am on celexa and it has also helped me a bit. What your describing just seems like you are overwhelmed!!! Do u have friends or family that could take LO for a little? Breaks are nice! Stick it through.......it will all eventually work out just may take time. Maybe a therapist could help....... your school may provide help for free. Good luck! H2H

ssf10

Thanks for the reply.  I am feeling pretty overwhelmed which makes me feel badly.  I think I am just having a minor set back.  I took my daughter to my grandmothers for a while so I can sit down and just think about things for a little bit and just breathe.