TTC After a Loss 6 Months+

Shall we resurrect Fvck This Shiit Friday?

Cause I am RARIN'. I don't even know who what where when to begin with, so I'll go for an easy one.

 Someone I work with passed away this week. He had cancer, but it turns out the doctors had pretty much beaten the cancer back and were hopeful for his recovery, when he got pneumonia and died of heart failure as a complication. Fvck this shitt.

So, what's eating youuuuuuu? 

Re: Shall we resurrect Fvck This Shiit Friday?

  • I miscarried this week. 

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  • Mine isn't near as bad as the first two.  I'm just having some issues with a co-worker and some drama associated around my job.  Kevin and I had a fight this morning over Turkey (don't ask). I have a sore throat.  I saw three adorable kids on the internet for adoption last night and I cried like a baby.  I am in the in-between phase of coming to grips with my never carrying a child and being ok with adoption.  Fvck this sh!t Friday.

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  • I didn't get the job I interviewed for with my company that is much closer to home, so I continue to drive almost 3 hours a day. UGH!
    Started TTC in 2/09. Dx with PCOS in 09/09. BFP on 11/7/09.
    Dx with Ectopic on 12/7/09. Laparoscopy, D&C, and lost my left tube on 12/08/09.
    01/11 = BFP!
    Finnegan Alexander born 9/25/11 via emergency c-section
  • The woman that sits on the other side of the wall from me came back from maternity leave this week.  Nothing against her personally, but she got pg, had the baby, went on leave, and came back in the time I've been trying and getting no where. Glaring reminder of how not well this is going.
    Brenna Married 4.30.05

    Mom to Teagan 4.11.07 and Cora 9.30.11

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    D&E @ 22w 9.30.09 CMV infection BFP 10.15.10 C/P 4w4d

  • dealing w/ af from hell.  not sure why it's so bad but not even a tampon is preventing flow.  maybe it's from the baby aspirin?  i dunno but if i was at work i'd be in a BAD situation, thankfully i'm at home.
    Image and video hosting by TinyPic 8.15.07 NATHAN 6.13.09 - 6.14.09 WYATT born 32w3d Gone too soon, RIP. 4.21.10 BFP - missed m/c - D&C on 5.27.10. 1.31.11 BFP - 1st cycle IUI + Follistim + Trigger (2 mature follies)Beta 1 @ 13dpiui: 199 Beta 2 @ 15dpiui: 527 10.7.11 ELIANA(Ellie)ROSE (39w3d)Team Green turned Team Pink - VBAC & ALL NATURAL 6lbs 11oz 19 &1/2in
  • imagebbhalphen:

    I miscarried this week. 

    I'm so sorry.  i didn't know this.  ((HUGS))

    Image and video hosting by TinyPic 8.15.07 NATHAN 6.13.09 - 6.14.09 WYATT born 32w3d Gone too soon, RIP. 4.21.10 BFP - missed m/c - D&C on 5.27.10. 1.31.11 BFP - 1st cycle IUI + Follistim + Trigger (2 mature follies)Beta 1 @ 13dpiui: 199 Beta 2 @ 15dpiui: 527 10.7.11 ELIANA(Ellie)ROSE (39w3d)Team Green turned Team Pink - VBAC & ALL NATURAL 6lbs 11oz 19 &1/2in
  • One of my coworkers just found out her IVF failed this week.  I feel so bad for her and just don't understand why this happens to good people!
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  • As is the way of my people, I can't hone in on just one or two things, so I will leave you with my standard battlecry of:

    FVCK ALL THE THINGS!!!

    12 long, hard years of TTC-
    Miscarriages, losses, lots of treatments & drugs & IVF


    Natural BFP (WTF?!) - 06/04/11 ~ lots of complication and drama, but sweet baby Adele born 02/07/12!

    BFP #million -another girl for us! EDD - 05-08-15 (but will come early)

  • Hugs and tequila shots to all of you.

    Coworker has been married for less than 6 months, is pregnant and already in 2nd tri. They weren't even really trying. Fvck that.


    BFP 12/18/2009. HB 1/4/2010. NO HB 1/18/2010. D&C 1/19/2010
    April 2011 IUI #1 BFN. High FSH and other issues.
    May 2011 Chose to build our family through adoption
    September 2011 Actively waiting for a match
    11/26/11 Surprise BFP * DD born 7/23/12 Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • I'm sorry for the craptastic week girls.  Hugs to all of you.  I'm laying on the couch & back & forth to the bathroom with the stomach flu that started this morning.  A special little hell.
    Connor Thomas 6/6/08. Discovered missed miscarriage at 17 wks 3 days, D&C 11/25/09. Please, please, please - BFP 5/21/11, EDD 2/1/11. Beta@12DPO=52, Beta@14DPO=158. U/S 7/7/11 shows strong baby measuring a couple days ahead!!! Pregnancy Ticker
  • Sending lots of hugs to everyone.

    About three or four pregnancy announcements on FB this week. Most of these from people who either 1. have been married for less than 6 months or 2. weren?t even trying. Sigh.

    BFP #1 4/22/10 MC 5/5/10 (6w4d) EDD 12/25/10
    BFP #2 10/19/10 CP 10/27/10 (4w6d) EDD 6/30/11
    BFP #3 5/10/11 Lucas Abelardo born 12/29/11 at 37w3d
    BFP #4 12/10/12 MMC 1/14/13 (9w3d) D&C 1/15/13 EDD 8/16/13 

    BFP #5 8/22/13 Lucia Elizabeth born 4/17/14 at 38w
     
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  • And now I can add that I totally suck as a friend. I get an email from a close friend that her stepmom who she is close, to has only 1-2 more weeks to live and tells me she is pg and due in september. I can't get an email out to try and support her in a tough time b/c I'm too busy crying over her pg announcement. Ugh. This is the person that helped with my daughter when we lost the baby. I suck. 
    Brenna Married 4.30.05

    Mom to Teagan 4.11.07 and Cora 9.30.11

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    D&E @ 22w 9.30.09 CMV infection BFP 10.15.10 C/P 4w4d

  • I'm so sorry ladies.

    My Fvck this *** is for insurance companies and medical bills! I finally got one paid off, to get two more in the mail.  One of which is a bogus charge because the doctor screwed up and forgot to order a test and so he redid everything and they are charging me twice!

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  • Sending hugs ladies. My rant is about another friend of mine just announced she is having her second and I have been trying for years before her and have none. Her dh has been overseas and came home for 2 weeks and that's when she conceived.

    Jenn

    image 3 IUI's all BFN

    IVF#1 BFN IVF#2 BFP, loss at 19 weeks FET#1 BFN IVF#3 BFP, m/c FET#2 BFN

    Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10

    BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11

    Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11

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  • Besides breaking my alarm clock (which I seriously want to through out a window right now), my sister's exBF, who still has a serious crush on her even though he is married, was being a huge AW before x-mas about his "new" son and how he needs pampers for him, just posted a FB status that made me rawr.smash.kill.  It was all about waking up early and how he hates it, to which I responded You should enjoy this time as some people, like me, might never get such a chance and dearly wish we could have that kind of experience.  He had to start in on the FB PM's then.  That really made the rawr.smash.kill come out.  Ahhh... to be fertile and ignorant.

    ETA:  Oh, and I found a lump on my boob last night.  

    Forever buddy to Angelica; Natural Miscarriage Jan. 2008 @ 11 weeks; 2 years of BFFN's; DX: Unexplained IF (RE thinks IF is due to tubal issues); IUI #1 & 2= BFFN; IUI#3 = BFP, resulted in Cornual ectopic pregnancy; IUI #4 - 6 =BFFN; Our next endeavor... IVF. 1 grade AA embryo transferred on 4-23-2011 and 5 frosties. BFP Abby born 1/5/2012

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  • Betsy - I am so sorry about your loss, if I haven't said so already.

    Suntoto - You'll get that checked asap, right?

    I did find a bright side to my week with a diagnosis BUT how the h$ll did the doctors miss both conditions, well especially the uterus, after undergoing so many ultrasounds over the course of two years. I am livid that my old practice was willing to let me miscarry a few times more until they would have tested me, and think it's okay for women to endure this pain because it's what is standard practice. BS.

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    BFP #2: 01/31/2010, Identical Twins died in utero due to TTTS, D&E 05/19/2010
    BFP #3: 09/16/2010, natural m/c 9/21/2010
    PCOS & Bocornuate Uterus Dx 1.4.2011
    BFP #4: 01/11/2011
  • bbhalphen, I'm sorry, I had no idea.

    So, I got a +OPK yesterday, but DH has been sick all week, and honestly, we haven't had sex in a week anyway. So, I'll try to initiate tonight, but we had a fight this morning, so who knows.

    Fvck all this trying to get PG for 2 years Sh!t!

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    * PG #1 2/26/09: mm/c 4/14/09 at 10w4d | PG #2 8/5/09: mm/c 9/29/09 at 11w3d (boy) * 
    * CP's 4/14/10, 9/1/10, 4/19/11, 5/24/11, 10/14/13, 11/16/13 *
    * Ectopic 1/17/14 - nothing on u/s at 6w4d * 
    * PG #7 BFP 12/21/11 - DD born 8/31/12 * 
    * DH Dx'd with balanced translocation in 2011 *


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  • A woman on my local Nest board announced that she's 10w with #3. All she does is complain about #1 and #2, and how hard it is...

    Fvck her, and her fertile uterus! 

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    * PG #1 2/26/09: mm/c 4/14/09 at 10w4d | PG #2 8/5/09: mm/c 9/29/09 at 11w3d (boy) * 
    * CP's 4/14/10, 9/1/10, 4/19/11, 5/24/11, 10/14/13, 11/16/13 *
    * Ectopic 1/17/14 - nothing on u/s at 6w4d * 
    * PG #7 BFP 12/21/11 - DD born 8/31/12 * 
    * DH Dx'd with balanced translocation in 2011 *


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  • ((((hugs)))) to all of you!

    I have been subbing for a teacher at least once a week since the beginning of the school year now. She's pregnant and not due until April, but she's probably going to be pulled out soon. I was in for her the week before the break, all this week and all next week. Nobody (higher up) has talked to me about taking her spot long term, which I would love to do. I honestly think they're going to give it to somebody else. I really hope not.


    BFP#1 {Cashew} - 9.19.09 EDD 5.26.10
    The day you first lay in my arms, you made my life complete.
    Aurora Rose born sleeping at 35w on 4-21-10
    BFP#2 {Almond} - 2.1.11 EDD 10.12.11 C/P 2.11.11

  • imagesuntoto:

    Besides breaking my alarm clock (which I seriously want to through out a window right now), my sister's exBF, who still has a serious crush on her even though he is married, was being a huge AW before x-mas about his "new" son and how he needs pampers for him, just posted a FB status that made me rawr.smash.kill.  It was all about waking up early and how he hates it, to which I responded You should enjoy this time as some people, like me, might never get such a chance and dearly wish we could have that kind of experience.  He had to start in on the FB PM's then.  That really made the rawr.smash.kill come out.  Ahhh... to be fertile and ignorant.

    ETA:  Oh, and I found a lump on my boob last night.  

    man I cant even imagine what I would have wanted to say to him I am sorry ..did you call the doctor about the lump ? I am sorry that must be scary I will say some thoughts and prayers that is nothing {{HUGS}}} let me know if you need to talk  ..I miss you;)
    Hold On ....Michael Buble
    MTHFR 2 copies of C677t mutation homozygous 2/2010
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
    BabyFruit Ticker
    Baby A born via c-section 1/10/12 @38w3d
    BFP #1 11/4/09 m/c 4w3d baby crab
    BFP #2 12/4/09 m/c 9w3d baby lion
    BFP #3 7/1/10 m/c 4w1d baby fish
    BFP #4 5/8/11
    BFP #5 8/17/12 10dpo beta 7
  • imageColindaP:

    Cause I am RARIN'. I don't even know who what where when to begin with, so I'll go for an easy one.

     Someone I work with passed away this week. He had cancer, but it turns out the doctors had pretty much beaten the cancer back and were hopeful for his recovery, when he got pneumonia and died of heart failure as a complication. Fvck this shitt.

    So, what's eating youuuuuuu? 

    this is awful I am so sorry
    Hold On ....Michael Buble
    MTHFR 2 copies of C677t mutation homozygous 2/2010
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
    BabyFruit Ticker
    Baby A born via c-section 1/10/12 @38w3d
    BFP #1 11/4/09 m/c 4w3d baby crab
    BFP #2 12/4/09 m/c 9w3d baby lion
    BFP #3 7/1/10 m/c 4w1d baby fish
    BFP #4 5/8/11
    BFP #5 8/17/12 10dpo beta 7
  • imagebbhalphen:

    I miscarried this week. 

    this is just awful Betsy I am so sorry {{{HUGS}}}
    Hold On ....Michael Buble
    MTHFR 2 copies of C677t mutation homozygous 2/2010
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
    BabyFruit Ticker
    Baby A born via c-section 1/10/12 @38w3d
    BFP #1 11/4/09 m/c 4w3d baby crab
    BFP #2 12/4/09 m/c 9w3d baby lion
    BFP #3 7/1/10 m/c 4w1d baby fish
    BFP #4 5/8/11
    BFP #5 8/17/12 10dpo beta 7
  • imagebbhalphen:

    I miscarried this week. 

    this is just awful Betsy I am so sorry {{{HUGS}}}
    Hold On ....Michael Buble
    MTHFR 2 copies of C677t mutation homozygous 2/2010
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
    BabyFruit Ticker
    Baby A born via c-section 1/10/12 @38w3d
    BFP #1 11/4/09 m/c 4w3d baby crab
    BFP #2 12/4/09 m/c 9w3d baby lion
    BFP #3 7/1/10 m/c 4w1d baby fish
    BFP #4 5/8/11
    BFP #5 8/17/12 10dpo beta 7
  • imageKelinandKevin:

    Mine isn't near as bad as the first two.  I'm just having some issues with a co-worker and some drama associated around my job.  Kevin and I had a fight this morning over Turkey (don't ask). I have a sore throat.  I saw three adorable kids on the internet for adoption last night and I cried like a baby.  I am in the in-between phase of coming to grips with my never carrying a child and being ok with adoption.  Fvck this sh!t Friday.

    {{HUGS}}}
    Hold On ....Michael Buble
    MTHFR 2 copies of C677t mutation homozygous 2/2010
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
    BabyFruit Ticker
    Baby A born via c-section 1/10/12 @38w3d
    BFP #1 11/4/09 m/c 4w3d baby crab
    BFP #2 12/4/09 m/c 9w3d baby lion
    BFP #3 7/1/10 m/c 4w1d baby fish
    BFP #4 5/8/11
    BFP #5 8/17/12 10dpo beta 7
  • imagebbhalphen:

    I miscarried this week. 

    this is just awful Betsy I am so sorry {{{HUGS}}}
    Hold On ....Michael Buble
    MTHFR 2 copies of C677t mutation homozygous 2/2010
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
    BabyFruit Ticker
    Baby A born via c-section 1/10/12 @38w3d
    BFP #1 11/4/09 m/c 4w3d baby crab
    BFP #2 12/4/09 m/c 9w3d baby lion
    BFP #3 7/1/10 m/c 4w1d baby fish
    BFP #4 5/8/11
    BFP #5 8/17/12 10dpo beta 7
  • imagebbhalphen:

    I miscarried this week. 

    {{{{{{HUGE HUGS}}}}}}  I am so sorry

    Lilypie Premature Baby tickers IVF #1 BFP Beta #1 528 & Beta #2 1514
  • imagebbhalphen:

    I miscarried this week. 

    {{{{{{HUGE HUGS}}}}}}  I am so sorry

    Lilypie Premature Baby tickers IVF #1 BFP Beta #1 528 & Beta #2 1514
  • Hugs ladies.  Nothing I want to complain about is even close to these.
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    Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle!
    April 2011 CP @ 5 weeks
  • Big hugs to all of you!
    m/c 7/17/10
    Dx: MFI- 3% morph
    IUIs: Gonal-F + Ovidrel + b2b IUI= BFNs
    IVF with ICSI= BFP! EDD 11/25/11
    3/18- Beta #1 452! 3/20- Beta #2 1,026!! 3/27- First u/s- TWINS!
    Our twin boys arrived at 36w5d due to IUGR and a growth discordance

    FET: Medicated FET moved up to 5/23 due to ovulation
    Transferred a 6BB hatched blastocyst- genetically normal female embryo
    BFP! 5/28- 5dp6dt      
    6/1 Beta #1- 223! 6/3 Beta #2- 567!

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    Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.
  • imagesuntoto:

    Besides breaking my alarm clock (which I seriously want to through out a window right now), my sister's exBF, who still has a serious crush on her even though he is married, was being a huge AW before x-mas about his "new" son and how he needs pampers for him, just posted a FB status that made me rawr.smash.kill.  It was all about waking up early and how he hates it, to which I responded You should enjoy this time as some people, like me, might never get such a chance and dearly wish we could have that kind of experience.  He had to start in on the FB PM's then.  That really made the rawr.smash.kill come out.  Ahhh... to be fertile and ignorant.

    ETA:  Oh, and I found a lump on my boob last night.  

     

    OMG Laura... ***big hugs*** I hope everything is okay. Keep us posted.

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