Im new here

KayLee77

Just wanted to introduce myself.  Im new to the board but not to depression.  I've suffered it for many years before having kids.  I had ppd really bad after my first baby.  and i thought I was in the clear after having this lo.  but i think im more of just being in denial. Im just miserable, my son is almost 6 weeks old and I feel like i havent really enjoyed him, and even though my oldest is 2, i feel like i dont ever get to enjoy being with him either anymore.  I go through my days of doing the same old routine just to get to bed time, so that i can hopefully get a few moments to myself. It doesnt help that ds#2 has acid reflux/colic, which im taking him in tomorrow.  He just screams all the time and I just get so frustrated. I have my 6week checkup on thursday and Im going to hopefully get something to help me.  I cant stand feeling so mad, or sad all the time. Im sick of my eyes hurting from crying.  I want to get back to enjoying my kids and not keeping myself confined to my house.