When did it finally

BathingInBitter

sink in that you were pregnant? Or does it ever?

I know with my history I have every right to be scared, but I'm so petrified that our next u/s on Monday (1/3) isn't going to be good. I wish IF and my miscarriages wouldn't have messed me up for life.. I just want to enjoy it without worrying that something is going to go totally wrong.

I'm just freaking out today.. I still can't believe we got a surprise BFP.. ETA: As I truly thought we were going to be living child free.

schoolsoutbride

It's hard to forget that I'm pregnant at this point because my belly is so uncomfortable, BUT, in a lot of ways it still hasn't sunk in that I'll be bringing home babies.  I don't think I started feeling comfortable that things were going to be ok until probably 28 weeks, though.  Until then (and still some now), I was just waiting for the other shoe to drop.

nikinikinine

I think when I hit 17 weeks it really started to feel real, by week 20 I forgot about what it was like to not be pregnant and just started getting really excited

LCB34

It didn't feel real until I held Kate for the first time.

Also, with all of her health issues, the worry has never gone away. It's always something - does she have cancer? No. OK then what is the blood disease she does have? Is she gaining enough weight? When will she stop throwing up everything she eats? Etc...

To be honest I worry way more now that she is here. Seeing her, holding her, loving her as an outside baby makes anything that is wrong - or that could go wrong - a million times worse than it was when I was just pregnant.

mdluv21

Now that I have started showing it is a little more real but still very hard to believe.  I think it will become even more real once I can feel them moving.

I still have anxiety attacks though worrying something is going to go wrong.

Yellow_Daisy

Honestly although I worry about not having symptoms I definitely feel like I am pg.  I am still apprehensive, but not nearly as scared as I used to be.  That said I don't have the history that you do so I think it is easier for me to embrace this pregnancy and go with it, KWIM?

I am so happy for you .

newsbaby

LCB34:

It didn't feel real until I held Kate for the first time.

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Same for me. IF pretty much ruined me for life - I was so scared and basically held my breath for 9 months and waited for the other shoe to drop. I would, however, recommend to NOT be like me and just enjoy the pregnancy! 

gymnst1013

(((hugs)))  It's sooooo hard after all the IF and m/c misery to really believe and I haven't been through nearly as much as you.  I'm almost halfway done and still have a hard time believing it.

I'm hoping and praying your u/s on Monday goes perfectly!!

kimarino13

It didn't really feel real until a few days after they were born.  I mean, I felt them kicking inside and my belly was growing, but it all seemed "pretend" or something. 

MyShellyBelly

I still look down at my massive belly and get surprised that I'm pregnant! It started to semi sink-in when the m/s started up, but it still takes me by surprise

LIAngel

Um for DS, I was pg for 37 weeks and I still couldn't believe it.   After he was born, I was like "He's mine?! Wow!".    He's 21 months and I still can't believe he's mine.

For this pgncy, yeah I can't believe it again.   

I am so so so so so beyond happy for you, Tarah.  

ginger67

I'm almost 26 weeks and I don't think I'll believe it until I'm in the delivery room. I went for an US today and I still freaked out and yelled for her to tell me the second she saw a HB. IF and MC's robbed me of enjoying this : ( I really hope at some point I just chill and start to enjoy it.

flutterby918

It, at least for me, still hasn't really "sunk" in. I still have days where I feel completely amazed and suprised to be pregnant, even though I am getting big and feel this LO every day. I think holding my baby in the hospital will do it for me.

 

Dragonfly1226

After having had two miscarriages, I was expecting this pregnancy to end the same way, When I hit about 9 weeks and had another good u/s at my first OB appointment, that's when my anxiety started to ease up a little, but it was still there. I walked into my NT scan at 12 weeks scared to death that something had gone wrong. After that scan when our baby actually looked like a baby and was moving all around is when I started to think that maybe this one was really going to stick. (That's when I added a ticker too.) Then we had another OB appointment at 13 weeks, and when she found the hb on the doppler that made me feel even better. I don't think I really started to let my guard down until about 16 weeks when I started feeling little flutters of movement. I really hate how IF and m/c made me so pessimistic at the beginning of this pregnancy.

Hang in there hon. I think it gets better the farther along you get and with every piece of good news you get

(((((hugs))))) 

ohiostategal

Dragonfly1226:

After having had two miscarriages, I was expecting this pregnancy to end the same way, When I hit about 9 weeks and had another good u/s at my first OB appointment, that's when my anxiety started to ease up a little, but it was still there. I walked into my NT scan at 12 weeks scared to death that something had gone wrong. After that scan when our baby actually looked like a baby and was moving all around is when I started to think that maybe this one was really going to stick. (That's when I added a ticker too.) Then we had another OB appointment at 13 weeks, and when she found the hb on the doppler that made me feel even better. I don't think I really started to let my guard down until about 16 weeks when I started feeling little flutters of movement. I really hate how IF and m/c made me so pessimistic at the beginning of this pregnancy.

This is me almost exactly.  After my NT scan I felt better but not great.  When we started telling people around 13 weeks or so I started freaking out that it was too soon and something was going to go wrong.  It has sunk in that I am pg for sure now, but I still worry a lot.  It is actually my new years resolution, to not worry as much.

ALY1981

LCB34:

It didn't feel real until I held Kate for the first time.

Also, with all of her health issues, the worry has never gone away. It's always something - does she have cancer? No. OK then what is the blood disease she does have? Is she gaining enough weight? When will she stop throwing up everything she eats? Etc...

To be honest I worry way more now that she is here. Seeing her, holding her, loving her as an outside baby makes anything that is wrong - or that could go wrong - a million times worse than it was when I was just pregnant.

 

I think it will be the same way for me.  I still wonder if I will get a take home baby.  I don't think it will feel real until I hold him for the first time, and I'm certain the worry will get worse once he's here.