LO and i found an apartment this weekend. we move in the 15th.
H wont help me pay rent on the house we are currently on the lease for. i spoke to to he landlord. he is going to help me find someone to rent it so i dont get hit hard with eviction fees. but if we cant find anyone...ill have an eviction on my credit i guess.
the apartment is TINY. ill be able to stand in the kitchen and watch LO crawl in and out of every corner with out even stretching my neck. its going to be hard to condense my three bedroom home into this tiny place. but ill be closer to work, church, and my supportive friends. i sound a bit bitter i know but i am grateful. i really am. i do realize how blessed and better off i am i really do.
of course i can always find things to stress about.
now its how am i going to pack the house when i work 40 hours a week and the only day ill have off is the day i move.
now that iam paying rent thats a chunk of my paycheck i never had to use before. and LO's FIRST birthday is the beginning of Feb and all i want to do is give her an awesome party and now i wont be able to.
i guess iam just venting
this is the only place i have to come and talk about everything. i feel awkward talking to anyone in my life about it. i dont know if its my shame (of being dumped my husband TWICE now) or i just dont feel like they can relate...even the single mothers.
Anyways... words of encouragment would help LOTS!