2nd miscarriage

Clery

Hi girl's I did not think I would ever be back on this board. I have been reading some of your posts and I found comfort in knowing other people were experiencing this with me. I had my first loss in Feb at 8 weeks. I found out I was pregnant last week but my numbers did not rise right. Then wed they went up, very confusing. The Dr. ruled out etopic thank goodness. But it gave me false hope. Today I learned my numbers fell again. What a crazy roller coaster. Now I am waiting to start a natural miscarriage. This year I lost my Dad and two babies. When it rains it pours. I am surprised daily with the strength of the human spirit. Sometimes I don't know how I do it.

kaustin

Clery, I am so sorry you are going through this.  I saw in your post below that you are going to wait for some tests before trying again, which ones are you doing?  I am thinking the same thing, this second loss was much harder than the first and I can't go through another one.  (((Hugs)))

Clery

I hear ya, I really thought this was going to be our baby. I don't know what kind of tests we will do but I told the Dr. I will not try again untill we check us both out and he agreed. I will let you know once I find out. I still have to get blood on Monday to make sure my betas are still going down. It is never ending. How are you feeling physically? I asked if I could get some medicine to start bleeding but the Dr. seemd to think the bleeding would start on it's own. All I know is I really don't want another D and C. Hugs

kaustin

I am actually feeling fine physically, I still feel pregnant.  This past Monday my levels were still increasing slightly but still only a sac in my uterus so they are thinking my levels should start falling and I should start bleeding soon.  Why do you not want another D and C?  I had a natural miscarriage before so I don't have any experience with them.  I definitely thought we had a baby too, I remember on the way to the u/s I told my DH that my worst fear was that there would just be a sac and it came true, it was horrible.  I feel like I will never be able to have a baby   How are you feeling physically? 

irishmama13

I am so sorry for your losses.

BrideinNJ79

I'm sorry for your loss.  I'm on my third as we speak.  I had a very, very early loss (just found out I was pg), then I had an embryo that stopped growing and had no HB, now I have a blighted ovum.  My next stop is a specialist to find out what, if anything, is going on with my wacky body.  I just started bleeding red last night after spotting for a week.  I can't wait for it to be over so I can move on.  I read about a woman who had 16 m/cs...16!!!!!  She then went on to have twins without any drugs or assistance.  I know it'll happen for me and I think that's what keeps me going.  I wish you the best.

Erin2007

Thinking of you all...

rose76

I am so very sorry for your losses. I never thought it would happen to me for a 3rd time. We had waited 2 years and in the meantime, I lost 52 lbs and we bought a condo...so I thought that this time would be different....it started off ok, but baby never had a h/b.....I was very very very strong after my 2nd m/c..so much so that people were asking me how to be strong, etc.....so I am going to try to be that way again. I am sorry for your losses.

Rose

3 m/c's

Clery

I feel ok physically, little brown spotting last two days and some mild cramping. Now that I know the end is near I have been self medicating. I just don't want to have two d and c's. I think one is fine but I worry about what two could potentially do to your insides. It's pretty much an abortion if I'm not mistaken. Don't worry if you need one, go with what your dr. says. I have no proof that it is bad, it's all in my head. Anyways I hope the best for us and hopefully we will just start bleeding. Funny it is a never ending cycle of I hope I don't bleed to I hope I do. Hang in there this weekend. Hope it's not to bad for us or any of the other girl's.

Clery

Thanks ladies. I'm sorry we all have to be going through this. Some more than once.  Hugs, and hang in there. We are strong, wonderful women who won't give up till we get what we deserve.

shaney06

I'm so sorry you're back here and that you've had such a tough year. I know you'll get good support and lots of <<<hugs>>> from us.

samm1983

I am so sorry clery.

jeffrae

Oh I am sooo sorry for everything you have been through.  That is heartbreaking.

Katie13

The 2nd mc is a real blow - we may be able to bounce back from one (all sorts of rationalizations there), but for the 2nd pg, often times we feel our bad luck is "out of the way" and we allow ourselves to be hopeful. So when the 2nd one ends, it's a shock to the heart.

I'm so sorry for you - the pain of my 2nd mc was probably the worst pain I've ever felt. I was numb for a long time. Just take some time out and grieve - do what you need to do to get through the day. And if you need to talk, we're here.

big, big hug..

JessMike07

I'm so sorry!! ::BIG HUGS::

CMM05

I'm SO sorry.....I just had my 2nd m/c and it really hurts....I feel your pain. I am sorry to hear about your dad as well......losses are really difficult.

I hope you can find some comfort through this board since we have all been there.....

I agree with you on the human spirit.....there are days when I just can't believe all that I've been through and how I get up and do it everyday....

Women are VERY strong people.....(((HUGS)))

nancyandnate

OMG. I can't imagine what it is like to go through so much in one year. I'm so sorry you are going through this. I found the second one much harder than the first, so page me if you ever want to talk. It is amazing that we learn how to cope and find a new normal. Eventually you'll find hope again. Big hugs to you.

Heidi2004

I am sorry for your losses.  I know it sucks.  I have had 2 m/c's also.  Next month I go in for a RPL (recurrent pregnancy loss testing) to see if there is something 'wrong' with me as to why my pregnancies don't progress either.  I have only told some people about only 1 m/c because it is too painful to go into the whole multiple loss thing and see the sad look on their faces that feel sorry for you.  Hang in there...

alwyzbsy

I'm so sorry.  (((Hugs))) 

MDBeachbride

You have had a rough year.  I am so sorry.  Hugs.

Temp616379875002458

I am so sorry for your rough year.  I remember New Year's Eve so clearly last year, when another friend who had a mc around the time I did sent an email to me saying, "Happy New Year" - she lost her mom and a baby within 4 mo. of each other.  We both prayed that 2008 would be better.

So, I am praying for you now, for strength today, and for a much better 2009 for you.