Hello ladies...as much as I hate to say it I'm not at all excited to be joining you.
My story starts last Monday when I had some spotting right before I went to bed. I thought nothing of it and mentioned it at my OB appt the next day.The Dr said it's perfectly normal, and we went through my appt as normal. I got some blood drawn to make sure my hCG levels were rising, set up an appt for my first u/s, and I left feeling very excited. The next morning (Wed) I woke up with bright red spotting, which quickly turned to brown, but it freaked me out. I called my Dr right away, and was told to get an u/s done that day. They found nothing but a black dot on the screen, and said it was probably too early to know anything. I went back the next day for more blood work. My hCG levels are rising, but very very slowly.
9/17- 571 9/23- 1286 9/25- 1535
I have been bleeding brown since Wednesday, and am seeing very small clots and tissue. I know that this is it. I am so devastated. I hate going to the bathroom just to see the parts of me that were supporting my baby falling into the toilet. I am hoping that this is it and that there is no hemoraging (sp?) or horrible end. I do just want it to be over with ASAP. I go to the Dr tomorrow for what would have been a nurses appt to go over my med history, but instead I'll be discussing options for getting my baby out and getting more bloodwork "just to be sure." I just can not handle this. DH is really there for me, but he just does not understand what it's like to be reminded everytime that you go to the bathroom that what was once alive inside of you is no longer there. I know that he is suffering too, but I guess I am just tired of hearing that "it will be ok." I know it will be, but right now I'm just not ok.
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