*I had Starbucks this morning...again!
*I want to TTC again right away but my DH is not so sure!
*I'm tired of hearing about people's problems and biting my tongue!
Thanks for listening!
I have so many....I don't think there is room...LOL
*** I am SO jealous of the two girls who just told me they are PG and are due right when I would have been due (see my "sad" post up at top of page....)
***I have no interest in my job and just want to go to the RE right now and start treatments....***I am VERY nervous that my RE is going to tell me we have to wait 3 cycles or something crazy like that when I just want to start right NOW.....***I can't respond to people's posts who say they have a "strong" h/b or who talk about their "great" betas b/c mine were the same and I still m/c at 11 weeks.....
I thought I was finally moving forward but then I was completely blindsided by AF yesterday and now I feel like I'm back at square one- and I'm sick of it!
** Yep, had a McDonalds iced coffee again. I actually managed not to get one yesterday for the first time in probably 6 days! I am addicted.
** My diet is not going well. Actually gained weight was week because I am emotionally eating! )=
** I want to start to try again, but the doctors wanted me to lose 20 to 30 lbs and I am obviously not being sucessful at that so I don't know what to do.
** I read a blog from a member of the July Sparklers who lost her baby at 22 weeks and she was confessing about overweight pg women at Target irritating her and how she felt they didn't deserve their children. It really angered me! Just because I am overweight does not mean I do not deserve children or that I don't care about my health. I know she was generalizing, but it really hurt me.
* My DH is getting an attitude with me when I ask him for help. I hate that he is a spoiled brat because I do everything
* I have to go back to school on Thursday and if ONE person says anything to my about my m/c, they might get smacked
* I am shopping constantly. I guess I don't deserve it, but it makes me feel better
* I had lost 52 lbs prior to BFP. Now I think I gained 10 lbs. So back to WW I go....
I miss having sex with my husband. I'm terrified to meet up with my pregnant friend tomorrow. She's one of my best friends and I love her and she has been amazing through my m/c, but I'm still nervous.I'm pissed that another friend never contacted me after my m/c. What, you don't know what to say? Does it make you uncomfortable to talk about? Gee, I'm sorry this is so hard for YOU!
** I have a stash of Halloween candy under my desk at work that I say is for the kids but no child has had a piece yet.... it's almost gone.
** I'm not listening to my doctor who said we had to wait 2 cycles. We're waiting one.
** I hated my new obgyn I started seeing when I got pregnant. I'm going to a new one.
** I'm not focused at work. I feel like it's job, not a career. **This is the first "confession" post I've responded to. I like it. I could keep going on and on and on....
I am so bitter and resentful....both my sister and sister in law are expecting now and i feel so jelouse and that i cant love their babies
When tehy are born i know i will feel nothing but resentment towards them and their babies.
My husband now does not know when he will agree to start trying again and i feel my day will never come
I secretly want both my sister and sister in law to have a mc too so they can see how it feels cause i feel no one can understand the pain i am in to have a mc and less than a month later have both of them preganant
I am so depressed and wish i could just get pregnant again so i can feel better:(
I just found out today about my m/c, and...
I feel guilty that I came home and had three, count 'em three rum and cokes. The rationale side of me knows that drinking away my sorrow is NOT healthy, but today I don't care. Maybe tomorrow things will be different. Sigh...