I am trying so hard

olivia_eve

I am so detached from this pregnancy, at times it scares me a little.  Not in a health-related way, I'm taking PNV's and folic acid religiously, eating right, stuff like that.  It's mental- I don't really ever talk or think about taking a baby home in August. 

I feel symptoms, and then I feel a little bit better, and then my symptoms go away and I think it's all over and just a repeat of what happened a few months ago.  And then of course, I wonder if I feel detached because a part of me knows something is wrong.  Or is it just that I'm trying to protect myself?

Aaaarrrrggghhhh!  The PGaL mindfreak is strong with me tonight.  I have my first u/s in 8 days, so I'm just trying to hang on until then.

Shemico

*big hugs* all you can do it take it one day at a time.

sophiemarie18

I'm sorry you're feeling this way, but I do think it is a normal part of being PgAL.  Just keep taking it a day at a time, and celebrate those milestones as best as you can.  It seemed like each one we passed, I'd start to feel a little better about acknowledging the fact that we really are going to have this baby.  Once we had the anatomy scan, that helped me a lot.  I still sometimes have trouble calling our baby by her name like dh does, just because I know nothing is certain, but I do feel much more attached and in tune than I did early on.

rvandiver0705

I feel exactly the same way.  I think it is a combination of protecting yourself, and maybe feeling odd when you see people with no clue of what could happen squeeing over everything on the month and tri boards.  It is hard, and we do loves these babies.  I'm just faking it until I make it.  I'm going to take pictures for a scrapbook, record my symptoms in blog form, and try as hard as I can to get back to that place where I sing my baby a song every night.  It will just take time.

(((Hugs))) 

chusum

I honestly feel the same way... Completely detached. The HPTs say yes, but my head says there is nothing there. Kinda surreal.