Some days are so tough :(

Ryan&Kristin062009

I put a call into my RE's office last night because I wanted to get a 3rd beta and a progesterone check. They're having me in tomorrow. They said what the suppositories are doing won't show up in my bloodwork though (is this true? I feel like I've seen signatures of those before suppositories and after, and peoples progesterone levels have increased). I guess it's more peace of mind for me.

I again asked about the reasoning behind the fact that my progesterone started off low, and same thing about it most likely being because this pregnancy isn't viable. I got the whole "don't be surprised if things don't go well at your next ultrasound".

I just feel so defeated and like its 100% over. I've been crying a lot and everything. I just can't get myself together. It's been 5 months since our last loss and I just don't want to go through it again, right around the holidays. I mean, I know there is nothing I can do, but it's so painful to just wait. I just feel like it's over and I don't know what to do

Sorry for the debbie downer post  

gone_awry

I know there's nothing that can really be said... waiting is so hard. (((hugs)))

frogyie

I'll keep my fingers crossed for you.... I hope the progesterone works

611bride05

Fingers crossed for you! 

pennynjon

I know the waiting and negative feedback is SO hard.  I am right there with you.  I will be praying for you.  I hope we both get good news.

eminbmore

I think it's kind of ridiculous that someone would tell you that a progesterone level of 9 would mean impending doom.  Your betas look great and doubled beautifully, and my RE said he'd seen people with progesterone levels as low as 2 that had gone on to have perfectly fine and healthy pregnancies.

Gummybear

I think it's pretty sh!tty that your RE is telling you that. Try to stay positive, up until this point this are going well. Most women don't even know their progesterone so if you weren't having it tested, you'd be thrilled at thisn point right?

olivia_eve

Hang in there, ((hugs)).

Clerk9

((BIG HUGS))

You're doing everything you can, & hopefully the suppositories are doing their job.  Are you scheduled to have an ultrasound anytime soon?

FWIW, this past weekend I was CONVINCED that it was all over.  And, on Thursday, I had a fantastic ultrasound & LO is doing great.  (I also had borderline low progesterone & am not on supplements.)

PgAL is SO hard, but hang in there!  I hope your next set of bloodwork is more reassuring.   

jamilynn9

I tried so hard to be positive in the beginning, but I haven't had b/w since 12dpo and no u/s yet so I'm also a Debbie Downer unfortunately.  If I had sketchy news, I'd be freaking even more.  I understand where you're coming from and I am hoping hoping hoping for the best for you.  GL!

Hunter22

I'm so sorry you qre going through this. For the life of me I really don't get why they are so doom and gloom because your numbers look great! Hang in there, my fingers are crossed for you!

Ryan&Kristin062009

Oh my gosh ladies ya'll are sooo sweet! You make me want to cry! I just need to keep reading your responses until my next U/S. I am praying everything goes okay!

Ryan&Kristin062009

pennynjon:

I know the waiting and negative feedback is SO hard.  I am right there with you.  I will be praying for you.  I hope we both get good news.

I hope you get good news this week at your U/S! Praying for you!!

Ryan&Kristin062009

eminbmore:

I think it's kind of ridiculous that someone would tell you that a progesterone level of 9 would mean impending doom.  Your betas look great and doubled beautifully, and my RE said he'd seen people with progesterone levels as low as 2 that had gone on to have perfectly fine and healthy pregnancies.

Wow that is incredible!

 

I think they are concerned because my hcg levels were nice and high, yet the progesterone was really low, so they are thinking there is most likely something abnormal there. They have definitely scared the crap out of me. They were talking ectopic at first, which I think is why they had me in or an early ultrasound. Thankfully that was ruled out. At this point I am concerned about a molar or blighted ovum (hcg levels still really really high), but I guess we will see what the next U/S brings! 

Ryan&Kristin062009

Gummybear:

I think it's pretty sh!tty that your RE is telling you that. Try to stay positive, up until this point this are going well. Most women don't even know their progesterone so if you weren't having it tested, you'd be thrilled at thisn point right?

I know  It wasn't my RE that I've been seeing all along, it was the on call doctor because my b/w was done over the weekend. I'd also talked to one of the nurses (for a 2nd opinion I guess) and she said the same thing. The doctor I saw at my U/S wasn't as doom and gloom, but he did say we aren't out of the woods yet and we'll see what the next U/S brings. He said he's seen plenty of people with low prog go on to have healthy babies, but some don't as well. He said if there's a chromosome issue here, then it doesn't matter what we do or how things look, it's going to end the same etc etc. They pretty much scared me to death haha

Yeah the on call doctor said if they hadn't tested my progesterone then they would have just stopped at beta #2 and assumed everything was great. At least the suppositories have done their job and I'm up to 30.1 as of now, but still, if there's a problem, the fact that it raised won't matter. 

Ryan&Kristin062009

jamilynn9:

I tried so hard to be positive in the beginning, but I haven't had b/w since 12dpo and no u/s yet so I'm also a Debbie Downer unfortunately.  If I had sketchy news, I'd be freaking even more.  I understand where you're coming from and I am hoping hoping hoping for the best for you.  GL!

 

Oh gosh that must be so hard not knowing whats going on in there. When is your next appt?