Kinda a newbie . . .

JoAnna914

I posted this on the TTC board, so I hope it's not annoying that I repost it.  I just feel a special kinship with the over-35 ladies, so I thought I'd re-introduce myself here, as well.

I've been lurking on and off over the years, and I think I even wrote an "I'm a newbie" post a year and a half ago (maybe?), and although there were a couple of times DH and I thought about TTC (and even fully intended to TTC), we were too terrified to pull the trigger, so to speak.  We've spent a lot of time wondering if being parents was for us; we've done a lot of soul searching. 

Well, we're throwing caution to the wind, and we're officially TTC.  I think (I hope) I'll be a good mom, and DH is definitely great dad material.  But I'm scared, for sure.  I've spent nearly 38 years on this earth owing nothing to anyone, so the idea of being fully responsible for a little one is overwhelming.  I realize I should not put the cart before the horse (and actually get pregnant first), but I'm still freaked out, especially since I've spent my entire adult life trying NOT to get pregnant. Sometimes I wonder if we're crazy!

Anyway, good luck to everyone!

jenn&chris2

HI & welcome, I'm new on the TTC after 35 board myself.  GL to you & it's a natural feeling to be scared...  I know I sure was.

CityPixie

Hi Joanna. I definitely can relate!  We've been prefectly happy with no kids. But when we're getting close to too late, it seems like we should at least try.  Or we might regret it.  Maybe it makes the roller coaster of TTC a little easier?  But probably not.  Somehow, finally, this year I came to point where I was okay, even welcomed, a major shift in our lives.  I wasn't always willing to do that.  So now that I'm ready I just wish my freakin' ute would get there too.    Good luck to you!!! 

georgia3

Welcome! I've really enjoyed the company here on this board and I hope you will too. I know everyone is different, but having my daughter and son have been so deeply rewarding. Well worth any trepidation I felt when I decided to TTC.

Mrs.McIrish

I totally relate! I am so used to doing what I want when I want (and sleeping in on weekends!). The idea of that freedom going away scares me a lot but I think (hope) I am up to the challenge.  My nephew and niece (age 4 and 2) crack me up and I love them so much. I can only imagine the love of having my own.  Remember that you also get 9 months (at least) to get used to the idea. They don't come out wanting to go to soccer practice!!! Good luck to you and welcome!

JoAnna914

Thanks for the warm welcome, ladies, and thanks for the validation.  I look forward to getting to know you all, although I hope your stays here do not last much longer ;-)

jarbatz

Totally know how you feel....we jumped in feet first going from "let's just see what happens" to "ok let's really try" and we got pg on the first cycle trying!   I am not complaining b/c I know how blessed we are to have gotten so "lucky" but we really didn't have a lot of time to think or rethink things.  

And the beginning was hard...really hard....adjusting to our new life...but it is beyond anything I ever could have imagined now.  That is not to say we don't sometimes long for the days where we could get up and go...but we would never trade our DD in to have that freedom back.

I wish you the best of luck and hope that you get a BFP soon!