I feel like a ticking bomb...

Mrs.N.H.

...and I hate it!

Last time I was so excited and happy and this time around, I'm just waiting for the day that it all goes wrong. I feel like if I get too excited I'm just gonna be more depress and hurt when I loose the baby. I hate feeling like this, I feel like is not fair for this baby that I'm not as excited as I would be if I didn't go through a loss...but there is nothing I can do about it.

Sorry for the pity vent...I guess I just needed to get it out of my system.

Amer19

Ah, sweetie, I'd be the same way. I think it is completely normal to feel that way after a loss. It's part of the grieving process. As the pregnancy progresses, it'll be easier to stay positive about it. Don't feel guilty about it. it's been a rough road for you to get pregnant so you've paid your dues. I have faith that come August, you'll have a healthy baby in your arms!

MissMex

Hugs momma

DreamsBride411

N, I remember feeling like this too and I didn't even experience a loss...  It's so hard in the beginning!!  Try to keep yourself as occupied as possible and stay positive!

Wendells

i think that's so normal N.  I'm sorry

jcombs

Sorry double post!

jcombs

Totally normal!  Heck I was waiting for the other shoe to drop all the way up until  Ian was born!  Its just the way to try to protect your feelings.  Its hard I know, but it is very very normal.  And your baby won't suffer any bit because of it.  Right now Mommy just needs to do what she needs to do!