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Bluebird30

Hi everyone.  I've lurked for several months on this board and have been comforted numerous times by the strength and compassion of the women here.  Thank you.

 My story is like many others.  I've suffered two miscarriages, the first last March and another in September.  A year ago DH and I were just "entertaining" the idea of starting a family, and now just a few short months later I can't believe we've had two losses.  I just can't believe it.

 My first mc occurred naturally at 6 weeks...talk about a whirlwind.  We found out we were preganant on a Friday, and by Monday the cramping had begun.  I knew what was happening, you know that crazy intuition we have at certain times?  It was quick and relatively painless, and completely devastating.

The second mc was even harder to swallow.  I got pregnant again quickly and had a seemingly perfect pregnancy...sick all the time, baby's heartbeat was strong (got to see him/her twice on ultrasounds,) etc.  Once I passed the 8-week checkup, I thought we were out of the danger zone--my doctor even mentioned something like "less than a 2% chance of miscarrying at that point."  At my 12-week appt the doctor couldn't detect a heartbeat.  It was determined the baby had died right after my 8-week checkup.  For almost 4 weeks I carried my baby thinking I was pregnant, with all of the symptoms raging.  I saw my husband cry for the very first time in the doctor's office that day.  A d&c was scheduled, I had complications from it, spent a night in the ER, and slowly healed over the next month or so. 

So it's been 3 months since my last m/c and boy does it still hurt!  Babies everywhere, friends expecting, and people constantly saying the wrong things (trying to say the right things.)  I received the test results from #2 the other day--triploidy.  I went ahead and had the major bloodwork panel run last week, and am still waiting for the results. 

Thanks for letting me ramble on.  I feel like I need some more time to heal before I even begin to think of ttc again.  Maybe spring?  Who knows, I guess you just know when it's time.  I hope everyone here is able to find some peace and comfort during the holidays, especially during those awkward and painful moments that follow such a sad event.  Thanks again.   

vitan

I am so sorry for your losses. I think you're right, when you're ready - you just know it. We do have that amazing intuition that sometimes works in our favor but sometimes, we just hate being right.

I hope you find the comfort and solace you need during the holidays as well.

dana1318a

I am so sorry for your losses    and I hope that you're able to find some peace as well.  This board has been such a comfort to me, and I hope you're able to take the same from it.  ((hugs))

hmclaughlin10

I am so sorry for your losses. I read the posts on here and can't believe the strength that these women have. I have only had 1 miscarriage and it has thrown me for a loop. It's been 2 weeks and I still cry everyday and just have no motivation to do anything. I as well lost my baby 4 weeks before we found out and that is the hardest thing to comprehend. I pray that you and your husband have better luck trying next time. Thought you have already, I am sure you will find even more comfort from all the women on here--they are so incredible!

fireflies0306

I am so sorry for your losses!  but you will find this board to be very helpful.  when you are ready to try again, you'll just know (or so my dr told me today).  until then, just try to enjoy this time with your dh, and your healing together.  {{hugs}}

mdhealy676

I'm so sorry for your losses.  I too have had 2 losses in relatively quick succession (July and November this year) and found the second one much harder to handle.  I just got the chromosome test results back and nothing wrong the baby so no answers there.  Testing is such a double edged sword--if there's something wrong, then at least you have an answer but still no guarantees that it won't happen again.  I'm in an optimistic mood today so hopefully the third time will be the charm for both of us!