I feel

brekaye

like I'm lost in a fog. I am forgetting to do things, forget why I walked into a room, I have potatoes in the oven and hope I don't forget those. The feeling is hard to describe but I have no desire to leave the house. I have horses in the barn that I know would help to heal this heartache but I have been asking my husband to go feed and clean stalls so I don't have to leave the house. I'm out from work again today and don't feel guilty at all, and that's not like me. At this point I don't want to go back to work at all, but I know getting back to daily living will force me to move forward and get back into my normal routine. I'm just not interested in my normal routine. 

Until then, I'm just going to lay on the  couch, eat my potatoes and cookies and watch Phineas and Ferb. tomorrow will be better. 

Snowbride02

I'm sorry.  I hope you are getting support from the people you are close too. The only thing that makes me feel better is having someone to talk honestly and openly with about how I feel.  This is such a heart-wrenching thing to go through, I can imagine doing it twice.

dayjessica

Im so sorry. I felt that way at first too. I didnt want to leave my house at all and I didnt for a week. Then the next week was only things that had to be done. Im so sorry you've had to go through this twice.Please know that we are all here for you, and we understand how you feel. I hope with time you start to feel better.

rowanleaves

Wish I could come ride horses with you. We could be in a fog together for a while.