i'm scared to get too excited....

dishy71

we finally finished our profile and it is on it's way to our program coordinator.(yay!)

this means we are officially waiting which is amazing, but i'm having a hard time being excited.  ok, maybe excited is the wrong word.   but i read some of your posts and blogs, and so many of you have your nurseries ready, or are registering or buying little stuff to have to be ready.  and i really want to, but i think that after so many losses i just keep thinking that maybe this isn't real, or that no one will pick us, or that we will have a bunch of failed matches.  i'm just having a hard time taking that next step.  has anyone else experienced anything like this?  any advice?

 

farmweddinggirl

I completely know what you mean!  Infertility was a series of such huge disappointments for me, that I think my brain is conditioned now to assume the worst.  So I just do what I can on any given day.  Last week I was at Target and as I wandered past the baby aisle, I suddenly found that I wanted to buy some little newborn size onesies, so I did!  It made me very smiley and giggly and excited.  But I think if I tried to buy a crib right now, it would send me into a panic that I was "jinxing" the adoption.  One step at a time...

Sunny1s

I agree with the pp, just do what you want and don't worry about it.  Truthfully, I enjoyed having the nursery to do to occupy my mind and time...to feel like I was moving forward.  But that is so individual.  At the very least, make a list of the things you would absolutely need if you got the call and that would make you ready.  Plenty of other ladies have done just that and headed to the store on the way. 

CaptainSerious

Do what feels right.  It's okay if you don't trust it yet.  It'll be okay when you do.

I was ready to buy stuff long before my husband.  I even bought a used stroller about 4 months before our referral.  My husband thought I was jinxing us.  In the end, the only thing I might have "jinxed" was us getting a child small enough to need a stroller! (M's 7.)

silliestbunny

I am excited for you!!  Starting out is fun..... the anticipation is crazy.  It's not like we have an estimated 40 week wait.  I've seen some families match in the first month and others take over a year.  It's really strange not to know when it's happening... but have faith and celebrate... it will!

summergirl79

Congrats, that is exciting! No advice to share as we are behind you in the process but I could see myself feeling similarly! GL.

smith486

Whats funny is that I just posted on my blog that I am afraid we will never get chosen. And we will be like the old couple from the move Up. (Anyone else on here get emotional in that movie, or just me? I can hardly watch it.)

However, like Sunny1 said, I enjoyed having the nursery to occupy my time over the summer. Now, I am keeping myself busy researching and getting the rest of the "stuff." The stroller just arrived today! 

When I am feeling good I do stuff for the nursery. When I don't feel good, I keep the door shut. But I know many people who can't think about a nursery. 

Don't worry about it. You don't really need any of the baby stuff that we all prepare with. People have been having and raising babies without any baby gear for 1000s of years. 

LittleYellowBirds

I know how you feel. I have started buying stuff recently (with all of the great sales). My feeling and justification is that we will have a baby soon, whether it be a two months or a year, it is on its way to us. I know that if I was pregnant I would run out and buy stuff the second I found out....