I just need to talk (PPD related)

DEElicious18

When DS was about a month old I was diagnosed with PPD. Having DS was supposed to be the happiest time of my life, but it turned out to be a very dark time for me. I was prescribed a low dose of Zoloft by my OBGYN. It did wonders for me. I was on the medication until DS was 6 and 1/2 months old. It took some time to wean myself off of them. As of a week ago, I felt great. This week, that all changed. I admit things have been stressful. DS has been sick, not sleeping, SO is on night shift, etc., but all of those horrible feelings I felt so long ago have come back. I'm finding myself getting upset with DS when he simple wakes up at night or won't eat all his food. I'm terrified of these feelings. Feelings of being so overwhelmed and sad. I love my little boy with all of my heart. I don't want to fail him. I need to be well mentally to fully be a good mother to him. I'm going to begin looking for a doctor tomorrow. I'm can't believe this is happening. I thought this was over

lmpdjc

I'm sorry, Dee.

Reagan1010

I'm so sorry that the PPD has come back!  ((((hugs))))  Hang in there and definitely find a doc.  You are not a bad mom!! 

bobbyme

It is normal (albeit, unwelcome) to struggle with PPD for the first year. You aren't alone. Reach out to people around you who can help. Don't get down on yourself, just address the problem for what it is. GL to you!

NeenTheBean

Don't feel bad.. AT ALL I am having super severe PPD problems again. I just get so frustrated with all the screaming and pouting and everything else. *hugs* you're not the only one.

DEElicious18

Thank you everyone. It's always comforting to know I'm not alone. 

sleepingbeauty825

My doctor said it can take up to two years for symptoms of PPD to completely go away. It's okay. I think you should get back on your Zoloft and try again in 6 months. Only 5 months being on meds is unrealistic, IMO. It's okay if you need more time!

LuvMyBostons

Dee, I'm sorry you're feelin down, but like pp said, it's normal to have good and bad days. Good luck with the doctor, I hope you feel better quick!

DEElicious18

sleepingbeauty825:

My doctor said it can take up to two years for symptoms of PPD to completely go away. It's okay. I think you should get back on your Zoloft and try again in 6 months. Only 5 months being on meds is unrealistic, IMO. It's okay if you need more time!

You know... I think you are right about the time I was on them. I was going based on doctors orders. She gave me the prescription with one refill. She told me to take it for a month solid then every other day, every two days, etc. Based on that, It didn't seem unrealistic. I'm beginning to think otherwise. She did say if I needed to continue that was ok, but I would have to see my primary doctor. I'm considering a psychiatrist. Maybe a combo of meds and therapy will be more effective.  

MCC1010

I'm sorry you are having a hard time. I suggest you find a psychiatrist and therapist to help you deal with the PPD. They psychiatrist is for the meds and the therapist is to help you develop stratergies for overcoming obstacles when they arise. I am a firm believer in the importance of both tharapy and meds.

However, you can always come on here and use everyone here as a sounding board. (((hugs)))

NastyAnnie

sleepingbeauty825:

My doctor said it can take up to two years for symptoms of PPD to completely go away. It's okay. I think you should get back on your Zoloft and try again in 6 months. Only 5 months being on meds is unrealistic, IMO. It's okay if you need more time!

This. And, *hugs*.

NewMommy423

sleepingbeauty825:

My doctor said it can take up to two years for symptoms of PPD to completely go away. It's okay. I think you should get back on your Zoloft and try again in 6 months. Only 5 months being on meds is unrealistic, IMO. It's okay if you need more time!

This.

I'm sorry you're feeling like this.

mrs.vanderwall

::Hugs:: I've struggled with depression for about four years.  After DD was born it kicked into high gear.  I had to double my dose of medication and haven't reduced it at all.  Get back on the meds and don't feel bad at all about it.  It's totally normal.  Do what you need to do to feel better so you can be a great mommy to that LO.