need advice

jhild0611

so i have a history of depression, the day i was discharged from the hospital I spent all day sobbing so my dr put me on zoloft. felt pretty good for a while then i stopped taking my meds (bad thing i know but im restarting them ). my son is now 3 months I just went back to work and I am feeling very distant,  shutdown and alone- almost to the point where i feel like im not very close with  my baby anymore and i feel like a terrible mother. im very irritable and angry at home with my fiancee and everyone else. i feel like i just want to run away, be alone and not be a mother- doesn't that sound terrible?? i feel horrible and i don't know what to do. i think i might need to talk to a professional before it gets even worse. i need some serious advice ladies has anyone ever felt like this before?? i just dont' feel myself and its affecting all of my relationships.... i feel like im the only one who feels like this and im afraid to talk to other people because they will judge me as a bad mother....

Kflie83

Oh sweetie you are not the only one to feel like this! Admitting that you have PPD is nothing to be ashamed about, and many of us have to try a few different kinds of meds or adjust our dosing. Talk to your Dr ASAP and try to see a counselor to help sort out your feelings. It will get better, I promise!!

I mean it! Call tomorrow morning! - All waiting longer does is make you live longer feeling like crap. Believe me, I kept trying to brush it off and finally got help a month ago. That was over a year of feeling terrible! I wish I would have done something sooner!!

totallyshocked

I went through everything you described. At one point I literally wanted to put LO up for adoption or give to a family member. I had no love for her, myself nor anyone else. Finally after a change in meds, catching up on sleep and therapy it all started getting better, Some days still suck but I have never been back to that dark dark place I originally was in. 

 

I know what Its like and I promise you that if you love your baby(even when u dont feel it but you KNOW its there) do it all like I did. Work out, take care of yourself (if u cant eat well drink nutrition somehow), get on meds, talk to someone and bond with your LO as much as possible. The best advice my therapist gave me when I was detached was to always call LO but their name. HELPED sooooo sooooo much! I have no job and would enjoy to help out anyway I can with any advice. Im not a doctor but I am someone that is almost over that hurdle. Private message me anytime and good luck