Prayers...

DCrider

Just found out last night my grandma is going home to be on hospice. She just wants to be at home. They say her lungs are just gone and don't give her a lot of time.

She's been such a fighter this past year. Struggling through 3 different life flights and numerous trips to the hospital.

I just don't know what to do now. Do I go home now and see her this way? Or call her and tell her I love her and wait...I know the decision is entirely mine but I am so torn. I wish I could just take a one way ticket and stay a while. I want to be with my mom and my brothers. Its going to be a long day. I keep tearing up and trying not to cry. I hate this. It makes me feel horrible that we moved away and I feel like a horrible grandchild that I didn't see her enough, and now....

Thanks for listening. I just needed to get it off my chest, I know some of y'all have dealt with a loss. I have never lost anyone so close to me..

kimprezzavento

I just wanted to say I am sorry and let you know you and your family are in my thoughts!  I lost my grandma on May 28th.  It was tough and I still miss her!  ((((HUGS))).  You are in my thoughts!

maybebride

Mrs*MichelleB:

{{HUGS}} 

I'm sorry you have to deal with this. I think you should go visit based on your emotional state. It will give you a chance to see her and your family. In the end hopefully, you will feel more comfortable coping. T&P to you and your loved ones. 

I completely agree with this.

I'm so sorry you are going through this. My prayers are with you and your family.

Tulips114

((hugs))  I'm really sorry.  T&Ps to you and your family.

rxy5309

So sorry that you are going through this. Hugs and Prayers!

MrsLee22

I lost my grandad in April, after a long fight with lung cancer and a two-week stay in a hospice facility. Like you, I live about 7 hours away from them and I went back and forth on whether or not to go visit.

Let me say this: I eventually ended up taking time off work (against my boss's wishes) and went down there for a few days. I'm SO very glad I did too, because he deteriorated fast and the next time I saw him he wasn't totally lucid, so the memories form that first trip are what I really hold on to.

I would say go. Things like work or school or other life "requirements" really don't matter at a time like this. What matters is being there for your loved ones, spending time with someone you don't have much more time with, and getting closure for yourself.

Good luck, and I'll be thinking about you

catahoulatte

You poor thing, I'm so sorry. I can sypathize with what you are going through. I can't tell you what to do, but I hope that you get to see her and I hope you find some peace, and not feel like a bad person, because you aren't at all

punkymama

((HUGS)) I am so sorry that you & your family are having to go through this. 

For me, being able to see my loved one a last time and say I love you helps me to deal with it.   I am sure that whatever you decide will be best for you.

kerrbear72

I think you should go. As hard as it will be to see her in her current condition, regretting not saying goodbye in person will be even tougher.

((hugs))

LittleD8081

{hugs}  The best advice I can give is to act in a way that won't make you regret it later.  If you'd feel bad if you didn't see her, then go see her.  If it would be ok for you to call and have another conversation with her and you could say you love her, then that's what you should do.  The situation is so emotional that you are bound to feel lots of things no matter what you choose.  But, regret is the worst.  Your Gram is in my thoughts and prayers, as is your family.  Don't worry...you'll make the right choice.  {hugs}

MillerTime13

If I were you I think I would go now if you are able. My gpa passed away while I was in college 2 hours away - I made the trip home when I got the call that there wasn't much time left, but I didn't get there in time to tell him goodbye. Sorry you are going through this. There's nothing wrong with moving away from your family to start a life of your own, and I'm sure your grandma understands that. T&P to you and your family.

mrsbaker1128

((big hugs)) I'm so sorry, DC. I agree w/ PP that you need to go see her now. If you don't, it may be something you regret later on. I'm so sorry you're having to even consider this decision. Keep us updated, when you can!

steff13914

I'm so sorry I think you have to decide whether or not you would regret not seeing her. It will definitely be hard to see her so sick, but is it something you need to do for your own grieving?

I think for me, I would want to see her no matter her condition because if I didn't go and she passed quickly, I'd always feel guilty for not being able to say goodbye. But, that is me. You have to decide what is best for you, and if it will be harder for you to see her than to not see her.

I hope this helps. Again, I'm very sorry. ((hugs))

OtterPop1

I'm so sorry. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. ((Hugs))