Never Thought I would have to introduce myself here....

silverrose43

My name is Kristin and I am coming out of lurkdom because I have to "talk" to someone.

I'm 27 and I've wanted to be a Mom since I met my husband. We have been married for two years and the timing seemed right for us to start trying. On September 3rd, I found out I was pregnant. The timing was perfect because it meant I had conceived on our anniversary weekend. I got it confirmed on the 9th and had my first appointment with a nurse on the 13th.

On the 16th I started spotting. I freaked out and assumed the worst. My husband brought me to the Doctor. They did an ultrasound and found the heartbeat. I was so relieved. The Dr told me the bleeding was dark brown and probably from the placenta forming. He told me it would stop soon and to relax until my 8 week appointment. Wednesday of this week I was still spotting and it switched to bright red with clots. I called yesterday morning and the nurse told me to come in right away. I had the same Doctor as last week. He found the baby on the ultrasound, but didn't check for the heartbeat. He told me to relax and that the blood was from the placenta again. He sent me home. I went to work trying to feel better but within an hour I was bleeding heavily and red and cramping. I passed clots all night. I have to call the Dr again today to have them confirm what I already know. I'm so mad at the Dr from yesterday, he told me I was fine when he clearly should have noticed that I was dialated or something. I feel that he just dismissed my concerns and got rid of me.

This is probably the worst thing that has ever happened to me.... my little sweet pea was only with me for 7 weeks, but I was already in love....

 

 

beachbum28

so sorry for your loss   T&P to you and your husband

Snowbride02

I'm sorry for your loss.  I experienced my first miscarriage this week and it has been terrible.  It's amazing how much you can love and want something so small.  I hope you feel better soon.

jchytil

I am so sorry for your loss. I found out on Monday that my little baby was not growing and that I would miscarry. I am having my d and c tomorrow morning.  It is the words none of us ever want to hear. But know that you are not alone.

silverrose43

Thank you. I am glad I'm not alone but sad we all had to have a loss this week.

MandaS08

I'm so sorry for your loss.  I was in the same situation that when we found out we were pregnant it was the "perfect" timing and we were so happy-to have that taken away is so hard.  But you aren't alone, and I'm received just great support from this board and its so nice to have a place to "talk" with people that understand what you are going through.

I was also very unhappy with how my dr. handled my miscarriage and I am changing doctors so I will hopefully have a much better experience the next time I am pregnant!

inlovewithB

I am so very sorry for your loss! 7 weeks is plenty of time to fall in love with your baby and make plans for the future. I wish there was something I could do or say to make you feel better. Let your husband take care of you this weekend, and try to get lots of rest.

bryanandkatrina

I am so very sorry for your loss.

Reading your post sent chills down my spine - we have so many things in common, it's hard to imagine. I wish I could offer you more than my condolences, but I am slowly finding out myself that only time will heal this incredible pain. Please know that you are not alone, and I hope you find some peace soon. ((((hugs))))

danamh83

I am so sorry for your loss.  Know that you're not alone and as a pp said, time will help you heal.

silverrose43

Thank you so much everyone for the support. I got confirmed this morning by a much nicer doctor. He told me everything had passed naturally so I don't have to have a d&c thankfully. He told me to take some time to heal and that he saw no reason not to try again when I was ready.

Jo&Matt6609

I am so sorry for your loss, and the pain you are experiencing. I had a mc 3 weeks ago today, and it was the hardest thing I've ever gone through. Know that time does heal. Make sure you take the time you need to grieve. You and your DH are in my thoughts. Big ((hugs)) to you.

LuckyMe2005

I'm so sorry for your loss.  We lost our baby at 10 weeks and we also named ours Sweetpea.  I can tell you it does get better with time.  There will always be sadness, but you will start to feel hopeful again about trying for another baby!  My T&P are with you.

jesslw

Welcome, Kristen. I know how hard this is and talking to someone who really knows what it's like helped me so much. Hearing their stories and sharing mine, knowing that I'm not alone, was such a comfort. I'm so sorry for your loss and sorry you have to be here, but I hope you find what you're looking for on this board. These ladies are so sweet and supportive.

 

I too had the scare before the scare and was told everything was fine. I saw the heartbeat at 7 weeks, 2 weeks after my first spotting and was so relieved and positive that my baby would be ok and everything was going according to plan. Then I had the same light harmless spotting again, 3 weeks later. I thought it was ok and it really didn't mean anything. I called my OB to make sure and they completely dismissed my concerns, made me feel like I was over-reacting and being a total spaz. My doctor, who came so highly recommended, was awful to me. I started getting really bad cramps so I went to the ER a few hours later and had a natural m/c that night. I was in my 10th week and it was beyond words. The pain, the unreal-ness of it all. All my excitement and happiness had turned to disbelief and shock, to overwhelming sadness, guilt and anger. DH and I have been together for 10 years, married for almost four and TTC for 3. To be given what you've wanted for so long to only have it taken away has been the hardest thing for me to deal with.

Again, I am so sorry for your loss. I'm sorry you have to be here and sorry your doctor was less than awesome, but know in all of those aspects, you're not alone. Sending thoughts and hugs your way.