Intro: Why do I feel so embarrassed?

amelianguy

Hi ladies,

So, I finally bit the bullet and called my doctor today after weeks of fighting with myself over whether I could have PPD or if it's just normal stress for being a parent. He called me in a prescription and asked me to come see him tomorrow to talk. I'm relieved in a way, but I'm also very embarrassed. I feel like I'm being silly - my baby is wonderful, my husband is wonderful, so I SHOULD be happy - but I'm not. I'm anxious and moody and it's affecting my whole life.

Is it normal to feel embarrassed about needing help? I'm just curious if anyone else has experienced this.

TIA!

uagirl

I feel the same way.  I have everything I've ever wanted, but I can't seem to enjoy it.  I feel like I'm on the outside looking in at someone else living my life.

Lindsey7521

I know exactly how you feel! It felt so silly to call my doctor and I felt so silly for thinking I had PPD...Especially when I was in a good mood. But I knew something wasn't right so I bit the bullet like you said.

 

Good luck!

skiwic8

I think it's completely normal.  At first I felt embarrassed and a lot of shame.  For me I think the embarrassment and shame was that I couldn't handle it myself...that I need meds to get through life right now.  That other women and new moms can handle things.  It's kind of like I am failing something. But my doctor kept telling me it's not a lack of coping skills it's a chemical imbalance.  We have no control over it and the fact is we are doing the best thing for ourselves and our families by seeking help.  While I know I am doing the right thing and have absolutely nothing to be shameful about there are very few people and there are certain people (like my IL's) that I don't want to know this ever. 

And to the pp who said it's like she's looking in on someone else's life that is exaclty how I feel!  Everything is so surreal...I just don't feel like this is my life at all!

MrsSR

Oh yeah... I have PPD and was really embarrassed to bring it up.

tbone22308

uagirl:

I feel the same way.  I have everything I've ever wanted, but I can't seem to enjoy it.  I feel like I'm on the outside looking in at someone else living my life.

 

This exactly.  For the first few weeks every time i had to take my Zoloft, i felt a pang of embarrassment. Like "i shouldn't need this". You're not alone.