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Laurakat81Laurakat81 member
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Ugh, I can't help it but I'm really resentful and bitter today. I was on FB...I literally deleted over 150 friends about a month ago, only left family and close friends and a few co-workers. I thought I'd gotten rid of pretty much anyone that "might" get pregnant!

But no, instead my stupid cousin who is like 35, immature as can be. Still goes out clubbing and drinking and I think he deals drugs too. Totally a douchebag and he gets a 20 year old bimbo knocked up and they announce on FB that she is 8w2d pregnant today. *** *** ***!!!

I'm really having an awful night.

Got in a fight with DH earlier and now he sent me a text saying he isn't coming home tonight b/c he needs some time to himself. So he's staying at his mom's. I'm so tired of being the only one to grieve for my babies.


[spoiler] My Blog: Grow Baby Grow

BFP #1: 12/2009 m/c 1/2010 BFP #2: 6/2010 m/c 8/2010

BFP #3: 10/2011 ectopic 11/2011 (right tube removed, learned left tube was probably nonfunctional due to scar tissue from infection after m/c)

3 failed IUIs, IVF #1: 18R, 12M, 10F, 3 poor quality 5d embryos transferred= BFP #4!!!!!

Betas: 9dp5dt: 64 ~14dp5dt: 91 (expecting miscarriage, doubling time of 236 hours) ~16dp5dt: 200~18dp5dt: 500

First Ultrasound at 6w2d revealed two sacs, only one with a heartbeat

LK arrived after 42 weeks on August 14, 2013! Beautiful, healthy, and happy!

TTC#2: IVF booked for April 2015

Surprise BFP#5 February 19, 2015 EDD: November 2, 2015

Betas: 10dpo: 10, 14dpo: 77, 17dpo: 270

First Ultrasound at 5w1d showed a miracle UTE baby! And right ovary ovulation to left fallopian tube.

JD arrived at 38 weeks on October 20, 2015.

TTC #3: Since October 2017. BFP #6 July 2, 2018 EDD: March 16, 2019 [/spoiler]


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  • Laurakat81Laurakat81 member
    and i'm posting and running...sorry. I need to just go to bed. Maybe i'll wake up happy....

    [spoiler] My Blog: Grow Baby Grow

    BFP #1: 12/2009 m/c 1/2010 BFP #2: 6/2010 m/c 8/2010

    BFP #3: 10/2011 ectopic 11/2011 (right tube removed, learned left tube was probably nonfunctional due to scar tissue from infection after m/c)

    3 failed IUIs, IVF #1: 18R, 12M, 10F, 3 poor quality 5d embryos transferred= BFP #4!!!!!

    Betas: 9dp5dt: 64 ~14dp5dt: 91 (expecting miscarriage, doubling time of 236 hours) ~16dp5dt: 200~18dp5dt: 500

    First Ultrasound at 6w2d revealed two sacs, only one with a heartbeat

    LK arrived after 42 weeks on August 14, 2013! Beautiful, healthy, and happy!

    TTC#2: IVF booked for April 2015

    Surprise BFP#5 February 19, 2015 EDD: November 2, 2015

    Betas: 10dpo: 10, 14dpo: 77, 17dpo: 270

    First Ultrasound at 5w1d showed a miracle UTE baby! And right ovary ovulation to left fallopian tube.

    JD arrived at 38 weeks on October 20, 2015.

    TTC #3: Since October 2017. BFP #6 July 2, 2018 EDD: March 16, 2019 [/spoiler]


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  • jr63_2020jr63_2020 member
    I don't think you sound bitter, I think you sound like you are still grieving. I'm sorry YH is being a jerk tonight and I'd like to smack your cousin in the head for you. ((hugs))!!
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  • DawneecakesDawneecakes
    So sorry....((HUGS))  Hope things get better!
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  • mr14mr14
    Your cousin is stupid and your DH needs to come home and be with you!  Ugh!  Does he do this often?  Thinking of you...I hope you have sweet dreams!
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  • cutebride73cutebride73 member
    I am sorry that you are having such a hard night.  You aren't bitter - you are just upset.  I would be upset too hearing about your cousin like that.  As far as YH goes that just wouldn't be acceptable in my house.  We fight, we argue, sometimes I want to clock DH upside the head, but he never stays away overnight.  You are married and he needs to be there with you - no matter what.  I mean I get maybe sleeping in another room or something, but not going home to his mom's!!  I guess I just don't feel that is an acceptable way to deal with problems.  I am sorry YH is being such a jerk. 
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  • krissymackrissymac member
    UGH! I'm pissed for you too! :( So sorry...
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  • tctibbetctibbe member

    I'm sorry.  I'm sad to hear that your DH isn't going home tonight.  Hope you slept well.

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  • TheGregory's07TheGregory's07
    Hugs.
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  • stillbakingstillbaking member

    I'm so sorry it's been a crappy night.

    (((HUGS)))

    Suze
    TTC#1 since May 2009
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    Bean - BFP May 26, 2010. EDD Feb 3, 2011. Natural Miscarriage 8w5d - June 29, 2010.
    Pumpkin - BFP Feb 8, 2011. EDD Oct 21, 2011. Natural Miscarriage 6w3d - Feb 28, 2011.

    Femera started November 2014. 3 rounds, no luck. Moving to IUI.
    March 2015: IUI#1 - nope.
    May 2015: IUI#2 - nada.
    October 2015: IUI#3 - BFP on Nov 2, 2015! *stick baby stick!*

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  • kathymariekathymarie member

    imagebananarama91:
    I don't think you sound bitter, I think you sound like you are still grieving. I'm sorry YH is being a jerk tonight and I'd like to smack your cousin in the head for you. ((hugs))!!

     

    Agreed. Sorry you're dealing with this. You're not bitter, it's a lot for anyone to handle. ((hugs)) 

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  • Ryan&Kristin062009Ryan&Kristin062009 member
    I'm so sorry :(
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