Do you have symptoms all the time or do they come and go?

katesmom73

I have looked up the symptoms of PPD and while I have some of them, I don't have them all the time.  Most of the time, it hits me at night and on the weekends.  Life just becomes overwhelming to me - I see the messy house, think about all the work I have to do (b/c I procrastinate so much during the day that I'm constantly in a state of anxiety), beat myself up about what I've eaten and why I won't be able to lose the weight.  There are more examples but I just don't know if I could have PPD or if I'm just overwhelmed with 3 kids, a husband, a full time job, money issues, etc.

When I had my dd I had the baby blues but they eventually went away.  I didn't even bond with my dd for a couple of months - it was very hard.  With my ds, I bonded much quicker and I love him to death - I miss him and wish I could spend more time with him (another point of anxiety) - I really don't think I had the baby blues at all.  But now, at 4 months pp, it has started to hit me.

I do have moments of happiness/contentment during the day but then it's like groundhog day every night.

Sorry this is rambling and long...just wondered what kinds of symptoms led you to think something was more than just being overwhelmed?

On a side note, I'm thinking of making an appt with a general practice Dr to get a checkup - cholesterol, thyroid levels, the whole nine yards and I plan on bringing this up.

BlairWaldorf

I would definitely bring this up.

& yes, sometimes there can be ups & downs.  But for me, those moments of happiness were so shallow & fleeting that I could barely notice them.

Lindsey7521

I don't even know if I have PPD, but for me I know something is wrong. Nights are the worst for me. Especially since its usually me and the baby and its jsut so overwhelming sometimes. Like normal everyday tasks make me feel like nothing.

katesmom73

Thank you both.  I made an appointment for next week and of course I'm second guessing myself now.  But I'm also going under the guise of a regular checkup so I'm not going to cancel but I'm in one of those content moments - even though this weekend was horrible.

tbone22308

Yes. I got the official diagnosis today, and I had felt like this for quite awhile. As I described it to my dr "good and bad days". Some days I could take the crying. Other days it made me want to put her in her crib and run away. Some days felt like I was "faking it" when playing with her. Other days less so. I would have glimpses where when she'd smile or laugh I'd say "aww isn't that sweet", but that was it. It took a lot of prodding for me to call my OB, because I duped myself into thinking that the good days meant nothing was wrong. Don't fall into that trap.

txbootsy

tbone22308:

Yes. I got the official diagnosis today, and I had felt like this for quite awhile. As I described it to my dr "good and bad days". Some days I could take the crying. Other days it made me want to put her in her crib and run away. Some days felt like I was "faking it" when playing with her. Other days less so. I would have glimpses where when she'd smile or laugh I'd say "aww isn't that sweet", but that was it. It took a lot of prodding for me to call my OB, because I duped myself into thinking that the good days meant nothing was wrong. Don't fall into that trap.

Nights are hard for me too! My mom is staying with me until end of October and does night shift with baby. I have anxiety bad at night. I am on day 5 of zoloft. Hoping to get better.

katesmom73

tbone22308:

Yes. I got the official diagnosis today, and I had felt like this for quite awhile. As I described it to my dr "good and bad days". Some days I could take the crying. Other days it made me want to put her in her crib and run away. Some days felt like I was "faking it" when playing with her. Other days less so. I would have glimpses where when she'd smile or laugh I'd say "aww isn't that sweet", but that was it. It took a lot of prodding for me to call my OB, because I duped myself into thinking that the good days meant nothing was wrong. Don't fall into that trap.

How fitting your response is.  I had such a great night last night and had a hard time remembering what this weekend was like when I was really down in the dumps.  I'm going to start writing down what I'm feeling and when so when I go to the doc next week, I can talk about it.  I tend to make thing sound better than they are b/c I don't want to be a complainer.

Thanks.

JMCAVC

My DD is just over 2 weeks old today and I finally called my doctor's office this morning.  It's the crying/screaming at night that gets to me.  I cry and feel horrible.  I start to dread the night as she is pretty good during the day, but night - OMG!  I had two nights where I thought we were finally getting into a schedule, but that flew out the window.  DH had her in the rocking chair until 4am this morning and I let her sleep until almost 7am before I felt guilty that she was probably hungry and woke her up.  Put her down for a nap around 8:30am and now hear her waking up so I can't stay on for long.  I'm just really glad I finally got up the nerve to call my doctor to see what he says.  My SIL is a registered nurse and has assured me over and over that I am OK and that PPD is uncontrollable and hormonal and that I should not feel embarassed or ashamed to admit it.  I am looking forward to talking to my doctor later today.  I understand how you feel and I'm glad there is a Bump community for us!  Good luck!