Most women don't know...

clondo

how blessed they are. The complaints about how swollen their feet are, they can't eat or drink that, nothing fits, being tired. Ugh, I just want this baby out. 

Are you for real? You are carrying a blessing and you don't even realize it. All these complaints and you have no idea. Hmmm, let's see, I just had my second mc, wanna trade? Oh, you're sorry? for what? Complaining about having a baby, how about you just shut your mouth!

Not only that, but how is it that here I am I change my diet completely around and take care of this little blessing inside and yet I still go through the pain of a mc. Other women, don't change, drink and smoke and do everything to harm the baby and they go on to have big, healthy babies? 

I am very angry and jealous right now, just trying to get it all out before DH gets home and I totally blow!!!!!

**SIGH** I know my babies are in heaven looking down on me, saying, "Mommy, it will be okay because we're okay". God has a plan and I will become stronger because of it. Praise God through the good and the bad. 

"Lord, I pray for all the women on this board who have endured the hardest thing, losing a child. Lord, watch over these women and strengthen them, keep them close to remind them of your love and grace. We will never forget your loss Lord, your only begotten son that you so graciously gave for our sins, Lord. We know you grieve with us Lord. Lord, we love you and praise you. AMEN!" 

court2211

Other women, don't change, drink and smoke and do everything to harm the baby and they go on to have big, healthy babies? 

~ I too don't understand why this is....

 I am sorry for your loss.

Laurakat81

I understand all too well. It makes no sense why these things happen and I know I find myself saying and thinking the same things you wrote about. Some times I simply can't stand it and truly wonder how I'll get through the sadness, anger, jealousy.... it is all so overwhelming!

carrieandtim

Thank you for your post...but especially your prayer!  It is beautiful!

JulsW

Thank you so much for your prayer, it was absolutely beautiful. Made me cry instantly.

 I think you just said what most of us on this board probably think on a daily basis, only some of us are not brave enough to say it the way that you did. I applaud you for being so honest. and i agree 100% with what you posted.

I am so sorry for your lost babies. my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

krissymac

I also loved the prayer - thank you!!

I had a rough day today too and had a lot of these same thoughts. I feel ok about it too, there is NO way I can keep up completely positive thoughts every single day and since today was supposed to be my first baby appt, I'm ok with being angry today.  And OK with drinking half a bottle of wine.

I hope tomorrow is better for you!

itsmegin

I agree. I wrote about that in my blog today, how I'm happy for the women who appreciate being pregnant, but I am so angry at the unfairness of the women who don't even want it or take it for granted. Why do they get babies when we don't.

angiemedic56

I regret complaining for one second during my pregnancy, I would have morning sickness every day for the rest of my life if I could just have one more day with my baby boy.

Thank you for posting my exact thoughts. The prayer was very sweet, thank you. 

allybaby85

I agree. I have been very angry at stuff like that lately too.  I'm a cop so I see alot of the people that don't take care of themselves while they are pregnant or don't take care of the babies after they are born and it really makes me sick.  Sometimes (especially on night shift) I just ride around in my patrol car and cry.  ITS NOT FAIR!

 Thanks for putting the prayer at the end of your post!

stillbaking

Oh, I understand. It's not fair.

We were running out to the closest all-night drug store near us that is in the not-so-nice area of town and as we were leaving DH was approached by the local crack whore. Who was high. And had a huge pregnant belly. It was such a blow - here I am losing my loved baby, for whom I was making sure I was so healthy for, and this woman who is addicted to a toxic substance, still had her pregnancy. So Not Fair!

1stcomeslove2

Thank you for the prayer. It was very touching.

I have been dealing with a lot of anger myself this week. I saw a young teen picking out school supplies and had to be 7 months pregnant. You wonder why so many people are given babies who don't want them or won't take care of them and there are so many women who will be excellent mothers without children. It is so hard not to be angry!

ZZsmommy

You're right!  I do ahve to admit, I complained - not a lot, but I did complain - when I was pregnant with my son.  Now that I ahve lost a child, I know I would WELCOME everything I went through with my son.  I vomited every day, several times a day, when I was pregnant with him.  I had back pain and was dizzy and had trouble sleeping.  But If all that could have saved my 2nd child, I would have gladly suffered through it, to get the chance to hold my child.  I think people don't understand until they have gone through it themselves, unfortunately.

As a teacher, I see plenty of unwanted kids.  I hold my son as the most precious gift ever given to me.  And I think it SUCKS to no end that people who would be GOOD parents have so much trouble having children, and people who are lousy parents pop kids out like its nothing.  It is totally unfair.

andrea701

Thank you so much for posting this. I feel the same way.

HappyLaLa0914

My feelings exactly - thank you for posting this.

One week after my DE&C, I was stopped at a light downtown and a hugely pregnant teenager who was smoking a cigarette crossed the street in front of my car.  I totally lost it.

danie330

*sigh*  Some things will never make sense to me.

 Thank you for the prayer!  I really needed to read that today.