So now that I know I have pretty low progesterone levels, I can't help but think my body killed my first baby. My old OB always assured me it was a chromosomal abnormality (even though we never did any testing), but now I feel like my body just never produced enough prog. and that's why my LO died. My doc at the time never tested my prog. levels, but I feel like my baby could have been saved if she had. Now I'm crying at my desk feeling an overwhelming sense of guilt. I just want to go home.
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Re: Bawling in my office with the door closed...
Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry. If that's what caused your loss, there's no way you could have known. I know that's not very comforting right now. (((big hugs)))
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((hugs)) I'm so sorry you're feeling this way! It's so hard not to blame yourself, but it's not your fault!
This! Hopefully!
Listen, the fact that you have a low progesterone level DOES NOT change the fact that the overwhelming majority of early pregnancy losses are due to chromosomal abnormalities.
Could your low progesterone levels have caused your body to miscarry a healthy baby? maybe. However, it's still much much more likely that their was indeed a chromosomal or implantation issue to begin with.
Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle!
April 2011 CP @ 5 weeks
BFP 12/18/2009. HB 1/4/2010. NO HB 1/18/2010. D&C 1/19/2010
April 2011 IUI #1 BFN. High FSH and other issues.
May 2011 Chose to build our family through adoption
September 2011 Actively waiting for a match
11/26/11 Surprise BFP * DD born 7/23/12
Oh honey.
:::hugs:::
Jenn
IVF#1 BFN IVF#2 BFP, loss at 19 weeks FET#1 BFN IVF#3 BFP, m/c FET#2 BFN
Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10
BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11
Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11
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