being pregnant or giving birth?
Like, can you 'see' yourself pregnant and with a baby? Kwim?
It's like sometimes I can't see it, or dream about it, but every now and then I can see it happening.
Just wondering if you can or can't visualize it happening for you.
I know, really random and totally flame-worthy.....just asking?
Re: Random. Are you able to dream about
MTHFR 2 copies of C677t mutation homozygous 2/2010
Baby A born via c-section 1/10/12 @38w3d
BFP #1 11/4/09 m/c 4w3d baby crab
BFP #2 12/4/09 m/c 9w3d baby lion
BFP #3 7/1/10 m/c 4w1d baby fish
BFP #4 5/8/11
BFP #5 8/17/12 10dpo beta 7
MTHFR 2 copies of C677t mutation homozygous 2/2010
Baby A born via c-section 1/10/12 @38w3d
BFP #1 11/4/09 m/c 4w3d baby crab
BFP #2 12/4/09 m/c 9w3d baby lion
BFP #3 7/1/10 m/c 4w1d baby fish
BFP #4 5/8/11
BFP #5 8/17/12 10dpo beta 7
I do all the time, but it's rarely a happy dream or one that doesn't leave me depressed when I wake up.
In HS, I used to dream about being pregnant and laying an egg (ha ha!)
After my first loss, I dreamed that we were able to keep the baby alive by putting the embryo in this machine. (Although it was a cp and there was no embryo...) That was awful to wake up from.
Recently I dreamed I was pg. again, but it was very early. My betas looked good. Then I woke up.
I haven't dreamed about being hugely pregnant since before I started trying. I think my brain is trying to protect me or something, in case it never happens.
It's just really strange to me.
Sometimes I dream about holding a baby, or DH and I being parents, but I've never dreamed about being pregnant.
Recently I was day dreaming and could imagine myself giving birth, but still not begin pregnant.
I wonder why? It kinda bothers me.
Most of my dreams have revolved around getting a BFP. Just 2 nights ago I had one & I wouldn't believe that the test was positive because I thought it'd never happen again. I think I haven't let myself look as far ahead as the baby because I know I'm going to have a hard time getting excited for the first half of the pg.
::::Sigh::::
BFP 12/18/2009. HB 1/4/2010. NO HB 1/18/2010. D&C 1/19/2010
April 2011 IUI #1 BFN. High FSH and other issues.
May 2011 Chose to build our family through adoption
September 2011 Actively waiting for a match
11/26/11 Surprise BFP * DD born 7/23/12
Sometimes I can.
What I can't do is visualize myself having one of those storybook pregnancies. My visualization is riddled with scary near misses and such. I just can't conceive that this process will ever be "perfect" for me.
ETA: I read it to mean "dream" as in "visualize." Like, hopes and dreams. In the literal sense, no, I've never had a dream where I'm pg with a healthy baby. My pg dreams always end in a m/c.
Now, I have had dreams where I'm nursing a baby, or holding a baby. In the dream I'm always like, is this baby mine...and then, happily, I always realize that it is.
Jenn
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Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10
BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11
Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11
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